♥Profound Chemistry♥

2010-01-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

okey i noe my blog is dead!. dat is y ive decided to strt blogging again. tweee..
okey so school is beginning to stress me out. i mean studies.. olevel dhis year & i really tynk im so gona flungg.. actuali tot of goin higher nitec but ppl told me olevel cert is important.. haiyoo.. so freakyng stress..

aniway dhers so much tyngs & pics dat was done & taken durong hols..
ferstly im werkyng @ pizzahut located somewher2 near amk, toa payoh, thomson.. haas.. figure out yurself..
secondly, i managed to pass my Nlevels.. SHockyng !
Thirdly, i've been attched to apit 4 a mere 1year & 2+ mths.. hrmm..
(pics to be posted)

well to strt of 2day was quite a boring dayy..
hurtful dat is. hais..
okey so after skewl wen to cp to, met aqilah & shelly..
wadever it is, i dun feel lyke typing it out..
2mrw shafiee dpt result masok office..
arrggghh! wad dhe hell .. hais.. office seyy..
so many2 gerls..
so many2 chicks..
it juz makes me feel so insecure..
so uncomfortable..
so afraid..
i dun understand y im having these feelings..
its lyke i noe sometyngs gona happen..
juz be it.. im stronger nw, in a way of losing hyme..

yes im prepared to lose hyme but im sure after everytyng we dyd, after every single tyng dat we shared..
after every tears we shed.. its hard to forget yu.. to let yu go..
why am i putting so much faith in hyme.. it will oni b a huge dissapointment..
i realii wana c hyme grow old, enjoying hys lyfe.. i wan hyme to hav a good future ahead..
i wan hyme to lead a fruitful lyfe, a great one at it.
i wana c hyme having a big family & a big hse & a good job, enuff to feed hys wife & children..

i will try my best to help hyme in hys studies & wen he needs my help.. but i cnt help hyme forever..
dear, yu hav to learn to b independent for fear that i might not b able to assist yu in future..
yu r a strong guy who is able to stand up on yur own.. ive been spoon-feeding yu for so long its tyme to put an end to dat. its up to yu nw to do wadever yu lyke.. i hav no control over yu. yu lead yur own lyfe.. yu determine yur own future. its hard to predict our own future, if i wuld stay with yu or if we r fated to b togther.

im holding back these tears.. im stronger nw hopefully & i will try to forget yu.. i noe its the best for us.. for yu & for me.. so we wun get hurt dat easily.. even tho it hurts so much to let yu go, i wuld & i will try to forget yu even if it takes a few years to do so..

2009-09-26T01:11:00.010+08:00

Pictures tell a thousand story..

[Seoul Garden 250909]

[Farhan]

[Aun]

[Geylang Bazaar]

[Airport T3]

[Ferst day Rayer]

2009-09-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dead blogg.. huhu..

kkes ferst & foremost.. !

Happy 11mth Annie on 230909 !

Selamat Hari rayerr ppl !

sowie if im abit too late..

Well b4 Hari rayer, went to geylang bazaar a few tymes wif bie.. !

bought blue kebayerr which matches hys..

This mth annie is superbb memorable..

on dhis mth, bie bought me a ring wif our names engrave on dhe inner part of dhe ring..

dhe next day, after skewl, we dined at sakura.. !

he ate seafood fried rice & i ate seafood fried noodles & he ordered tom yam soup as he knew i was craving 4 it.. yummy..!

hadd loaads of fun .. =)

den 2day, he brought me 2 downtown.. eventually we wanted to catch a movie.. but we ended up dining at Seoul Garden Restaurant.. Had steamboat..

since it was our ferst tyme dher, we ordered as much as we could.. haha..

sat dher 4 more den an hour.. chatting all dhe way..

my bie is freakyng romantic & freakyng lovely..!

i love hyme so much.. & i dun regret being attch to hyme..

i hope our love would last..

i hope everytyng we planned for in future wuld happen as it is..

i cant wait for our annie next mth..

bie, yur juz full of surprises..

& ever since we had our annie few days ago, yu changed..

chnaged into someone more understanding & more caringg..

i love yu so much bie.. & i realli dun wan us to argue ever again..

yu make me fall in love wif yu even more every single dayy..

I love yu Muhd Shafiee bin muhd Bahari.. !

[pics will be postedd soon..]

2009-09-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

omigosh.. kkes 2day 6 Sept 2009 ,
met Siti Muliani at 425 busstp at 1pm..
den wen to airport to mit Shasha, Faris AKA gala & Haziq AKA carrot..
well atleast cabbage is nice to eat okeyy yu guys.. haha..
hahahas.. studied till arnd 4+.. but most of dhe tyme we were lyke too distractedd to study so we chat.. chat & chat & chat bout our primary skewlmates.. haha fun otye !
studied at T3.. lvl 2..
denn, arnd 5pm, we wen to basement 2 to slackk & takee picss..
well hav to take pics frm Gala facebook.. haha..
arnd 5.45, siti, Faris & Haziq had to go home.. so yupp.. bubbyes..
den Shasha & me wen eat ! yummy.,.
we Ate at POPEYE.. huhu..
otye.. so we were at popeye frm 6 till around 8.. yup3 ..
dher were lyke so manny & so much to towk about..
her skewl stuffs & my skewl stuffs..
her lyfe & mine..
juz feel so comfortable towkyng to her..
haha.. & i realised we were all so different from ech other but we managedd to clique in so well..
haha..
otyes.. well hope to mit yu guyss again !!
cant wait .. yippie.. =)
2dayy is lovedd..
p.s pics will b updated as soon as i grabb frm Faris ..

2009-09-06T01:59:00.008+08:00

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2009-08-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

stupidd blogger got probb..
hrmm..
niwae 2day was greaat funn.. !
skewl was bowinkk..
after skewl got maths xtra class but i, louis, sam, shimin & jonner skipped it..
den met jaez & fyqa & yayat & Bj opposite skewl..
waited for bie...
walked to cp, to bie's hse..
waitedd for hyme to chnge..
den wen to my place & they waited for me to chnge.. huhu..
so, after dat received a kol from ina..
after chnging, wen out & saw INA,WEE,Athirah & 1 of their fwen under my void deck...
i was freakyng shock to see dhem.. wadd the hell.. !
urgghh ..
hrmm.. towkedd awhile den wen to changi village wif jaez & fyqa & Bie.. =)
urgghh stupidd blogger cnt post my pics..
nvm denn.. nex tyme..
after feastyng @ changi village, wen to changi beach to slack..
so ROmantic.. hwahwahwa..
den wen to sk.. wen our separate way, jaez wif fyqa & i wif bie..
so slack wif Bie near anchorvale dher till 9+ pm.. so tyredd..
i love bie alot..
he owaes made my day..
i wish to spend every single minute, every single tyme of a day wif hyme..
Bie, dun wori kkes, yu got me..
i love yu so much..
i really enjoyedd 2day so much dat i dydnt wana go home..
i wana stay wif yu forever.. !
yay bie, Sunday, 23-08-2009 ! bie our 10month annie !
well cnt get to celebrate annie on sun so celebrate 2day lurhh.. huhu
&
yay ! 2mrw fastyng.. SELAMAT BERPUASE ppl !

2009-08-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ytd, wen swimming at sengkang.. to summaries it all, 5pm met istia at 27 bustop sengkang.. den walked to anchorvale cc.. swam till 8+ den wen to cp to eat KFC.. hahas.. hais.. waited fer hys kol.. but he dydnt kol so i was lyke freakyng worried bout hyme.. but i gues he doesnt even care..
well.. i tot mayb sometyng had happen to hyme.. but dhe fact is urgghh.. the fact juzhurts me.. i effyng wasted my tyme worryng bout hyme wen hys having fun..

hais.. 2day had a bigg enormous arguement wf hyme.. its lyke dhe ferst tyme i culdnt even sleep & i culdnt even concentrate during lessons.. its lyke my mind was trappedd in a maze full of anguish.. i tot to myself shuld i end dhis rs.. might it b too late if i dydnt..
after skewl, met hyme & dhe rest..

omigosh cnt control my tears nimre.. i love so so much but every tyme i do, i'll juz b disapointed.. & it hurts being disapointed.. so many feelings mixed up inside.. & all i nid is yu by my side.. but i juz cnt take animre hurt.. dhis hurt im feeling inside is stronger den breakyng up wif nazrul.. it juz breaks unevenly.. it shatters.. i noe i nid yu.. yur my lyfe.. i cnt live w/o yu.. but.. its feels so painful.. its lyke a deep blazing cut through yur heart..

i realli dun wana break wif yu bie.. i love yu so much.. i wana hug yu juz lyke ive owaes do.. i love yu too much.. so much till it hurts.. yur juz too wild.. & i dun wana suffer animore... yu noe yu'v hurt me? .. yu promised yu wun slack.. yu promise so many tyngs & yet yu broke it all.. i promised nvr to text any guys.. & i dydnt i swear .. i nvr slack wif guys nimre.. i swear.. im nowt interested in other guys apart frm yu, i swear.. i swear in dhe name of God.. IloveyuMuhdShafieeBinMuhdBahari..

cyg, its nowt dat i hate yu..

its juz dat i reali dun wana get hurt again..

its torturous..

its unbarable..

but bby, i wan yu to know dat i love yu..

i love yu nw & i love yu owaes & forever..

bie.. if oni yu understand hw i feel...

dhers no other to replace yu.. i miss yu .. i miss us..

2009-08-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

2dayy, 11 Aug..
skewl as per normal..
after skewl, had to sit fer mly Nlvl prelim..
den, hadd to attend F&N session.. to finsh on coursework..
damn tyredd.. & frustratedd..
cnt believedd i actuali hopedd dat apit wuld kol..
hrmm.. stupidd dumb..
F&N ended around 4+..
wen to cp wif irah & eunice..
slack at macD..
omigosh saw Nieza & Ejal @ macD..
i eyfyng mis mis mis Nieza so muchh .. !
been months since i last saw her.. makin hawtstuff eyy Nieza.. =)
so walked to bustp 89 & saw Zanny.. !
i eyfyngg miss her too !
well she told me dat she saw apit at 236 slacing..
so i was lyke ya wadever..
tu psal dier lurh dier naqk lpak ker taqk..
aqku taqk control dier..
so decided to walked juz walk past dat blk..
hrmm.. actuali i dun reali bother bout it..
but juz wantedd to take a walk..
walk & walk & walk @ dat area till 6++..
slack.. slack & slack..
so ....
kinda hav mixedd feelings ...
dun feel lyke typingg out muchh..
hais...
bodow sangat kerr aqku nie ?

2009-08-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

Firstly, pics will b postedd after editedd.. huhu

otyes..
Ytd, 9 AUG..
wen thu watch Fireworks wif family..
reachedd dher arnd 7+..
dher, met aunt & uncle, bik dada & maman..
watchedd fireworks at one fullerton dat area..
wow damn crowded filled wif ermmm.. minahs & mats..
fytes occured under tunnel to esplanade..

hais.. wantedd to spendd ytd wif bie but had to go wif family.. & he, wen wif hys fwens & cuz.. ermm.. jealous ?? errr.. kind of.. dher r lyke tons of minah hawtstuffs dher & i wonderr wadd he dyd.. hrmmm..
hais.. have he been tynking of me.. ?

a smile on the outsidde does not mean yur smiling in the inside..
i kept tynking of yu fer the whole day ytd & i wondered if yu tynk of me?
i c yur face in every guys faces..
if yu ask me wether i enjoyedd ytd, i wuld hav said no..
no coz i juz wana enjoy my day wif yu..
i c yu had quite alot of fun ytd.. & im glad yu dyd..
but i juz cnt bring myself to trust hyme.. urggghh !!
ytd, i juz felt so lonely..
it was suppose to b an elating day but i wasnt..
i was quiet ..
i was alone..
i put on a fake smile..
& deep inside i feel lyke cryingg..
ive missed yu bie..

continue..
after watched fireworks, wen thu watch singapore idol on big screen tv outside ASIAN CIvilised smetyng2.. was sitting bside dhis group of teenagers.. malays.. && it realli made me miss bie so much so so much.. ! well one of dhe guys smiledd at me .. he kept lookyng at me.. but everytyme i look at, i saw my bby.. i saw muhd shafiee.. ! why ?
why dyd i c hyme? am i deeply in love wif hyme.. ? hais.. i kept wonderingg..
after watching, wen to changi village wif aunt & uncle.. i swear dhe so hipp..
b4 going changi cillage to eat, dhey brought us somewher.. someplace hauntedd.. it was lyke 11pm , nearly 12am.. dhey brought us to OLD CHANGI HOSPITAL !! crazyy ryte.. & my uncle actualli wantedd to go into dhe building.. & we were lyke laughing & shouting so loud dat goosebumps overcame me.. && we went deeper into the hospital .. it was freakyng dark.. i barely see a tyng.. well it was fun.. otw to changi village, my aunt told us about their adventure in changi hospital.. so brave... ! after eating, wen hme .. reached hme arnd 1am.. so tyredd.. slept lyke a logg..

2day had a fyte wif bie..
he apologies but i was too stubborn to forgive hyme..
hais but inside, i was begging myself to juz forgive hyme ..
i love hyme so muchh ..
anywae bie, gudluck fer yur maths exam 2mrw..
all the best.. =)

2009-08-08T16:23:00.001+08:00

LOVEE !
Watchedd Koizora !
omigoshh so romantic..
so swit..
so Loving..
so sadd..
ermm kkes this i must say ..
its dhe beshh japanese show ive seen so far..

loving someone does not mean yu hav to be wib hyme..
its about seeing hyme happy wib hys decisions..
its about caring & understanding hys nids..

love ?
its not owaes about hapiness..
its about sacrifices..
its about understanding dhe meaning of love..
wadd yu wish for wun owaes cume true..

love..
yu cnt bear to lose hyme..
every second w/o hyme feels so akwardd..
so lonely.. so helpless..
yu nid hyme more than anyone esle..
more than loving yurselff..
more than loving yur family..
to see hyme get hurt realli hurts yu more..
yu'll pray for hyme every single day..
hoping to see hyme once more..

love !
hys smile..
hys laughter..
hys hugs..
hys kises..
hys tears..
hys joy..
sometymes wen yur wif hyme long enuff, yu'll truly understand hys behavior..
hys attitude..
hys problems..
yu'll understandd HYME..
vice versa, he'll understandd yu..

yu wun understandd dhe meaning of love till yur in love..
yu wun understandd whyy yu owaes shedd tears..
yu wun understandd whyy everytyngg crashes wen yur nowt wif hyme..
yu wun understandd wadd each & everyday stands out for..
it oni stands out for love..
the love yu & i hadd.. have.. & owaes has..
the days we'v spent 2gether, lovingg oni ech other..
the days we argue & fyte 4 unreasonable stuff..
but i noe its 4 dhe bes.. yu wuldnt wan our rs 2 b destroyyed..
ive learned a great deal all this while..
all this months beingg wif yu..
ive learnt everytyng bout yu..
after everytyngg we'v been thru ..
after everyy tears we shedd 2gther..
after every kisses we had..
after every memories we hadd..
after every thyng..
-----I SWEAR I LOVE YOU MUHD SHAFIEE !------
I NID YU IN MY LYFE & I PROMISE I'LL B DHER 4 YU NOMATTER WADD ..
NTG WILL SEPERATE US BE IT FWENS OR FAMILY..
YU R MY EVERYTYNG..
YU R PART OF ME..
MUHD SHAFIEE BIN MUHD BAHARI !

2009-08-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

Yay prelims over.. But still,N's cumingg..
must must must studyy..
well.. 2day was dhe last paper.. Food & Nutrition..
paper was of standard..
& i hope its not Nlevel standard..

well fnsh arnd 9.30 but got mly mock exam at 11.30 so had to stay in skewl & waitt! boredd.. !
den mit bby at pei hwa arnd 1pm wib my crazies beshh sys, ira =)..
denn walk3.. tyredd.. !
wen thu cp & bck 2 anchorvale & slackk @ Anas blkk wibb titie, ain, black, bj & shelly.. & nowt to ferget bby ! !
funnn.. !
well weirdd.. ! dydnt fyte @ all 2dayy but instead we were so freakkyng close to each otherr.. he was so swwit ! & romanticc.. owhh goshh.. it makes me love hyme even more.. !!
bby ! i wishh everyday is lyke juz noww..
i wishh it will 4ever last.. juz yu & me..
w/o havingg to argue ech dayy..
yu make me love yu more & more.. !
im tryingg my best to trust yu .. im tryingg my bestt to love yu .. im trying my best to care.. & i noe inside my heart, yu'l owaes b ther..
i love yu bby.. ! i love yu so much ! i nidd yu in y lyfe !

2009-08-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

Boredd ! muggyng fer exams..
&& i cant concentrate !
omigoshh..
ive triedd so hard not to love hyme truly..
but everytyme i tried, my love fer hyme keeps on growing stronger & stronger..
it hurts so much okeyy to love hyme..
its lyke i dun belong wib hyme..
i hav to try.. try not to love hyme..
im sowie but i dun wan to get hurt ..
i cnt love yu whole-hearteddly..
i juz cnt..
its best if i hadd not love yu..
coz it will oni hurt me more..
wow 10mths ongoing, & my love fer yu grows ech day..
but it hav to stp as i noe we'r not meant to b..
i noe 1 day it'll end..
i noe yu'll dissapear frm my lyfe..
i noe yu'll find some1 better..
way better till yu ferget 'us'..
y am i wrytyng all dhis.. ?
i juz hav dhe feeling.. dhis feeling..

2009-08-01T14:55:00.000+08:00

Boredd !!!
2day is freakyngg borredd.... !!
parents & 3rd sys went to sengkang to do wedding stuff etc.. WITHOUT ME !
mrining got tuition..
planned to skipp but ended up goin.. hais.. !
but but but its otye coz ihsan & zaf was dher so quite okeyy..
&& seriously dheir so freakyng kiyut.. !
haha.. well ony Ihsan knew dat i skipped tution last week..
so dhey were lyke disturbinggg..
&& we were lyke towking bout dhe 'nenek Keropok' & zaf dreamt bout her..
ooooo scaryy..
hahas.. ihsan showed me her pic & its lyke freakyng scary..
gosh.. i realli miss dhem..

&& 2DAY IS SATURDAY !!
well dhers one tyng in mindd & i noe hys goin out..
so wadever.. let it juz b..
hope hys nowt out wib gerls.. !

niwae ytd, Fri, dydnt wen to skewl..
so mett apit in dhe mrning..
8.30 met jaez & haikal..
slack wibb dhem till 12++..
in between wen to hougang coz haikal wantedd to buy SMEtyng..

2009-07-28T18:53:00.001+08:00

otye2..
here goes..
was busyy wib lyfe..

Last sat, 25.7.09 ,
wen thu Downtown East to shop.. && i got dat dress which i wantedd so badly.. !
Yellow sundress from sheer romance.. Thnks Switharrt.. =) yu noe who.. haha
&& den got my tragus piercedd which cost 7 bucks so it kinda cheap.. tot it was painful but it isnt.. cool shit..
so after dat window shopp den off home..

apit kuwar ngn wie & acai & icha ?
hrmm.. den smetyngg happen .. hais.. realli was damn freaking sad fer hyme.. hais..
but den wen i heard dat wie was dher, i was lyke wad dhe heck.. fuck lurhh.. i was so piss off.. ! hais
as if he cares.. ya i tried nowt to tynk of anytyng bad but everytyme i owaes tynk dat he'll do smetyng bhind my back lyke ermmm wif Ina .. hais.. ya nvm.. im trying hard nowt to love hyme fully.. but its hard.. coz everytyme im w/o hyme, i yearn for hys presents.. i dun wan thu love hyme whole-heartedly as i noe dat i cn get hurt so deeply.. && i realli dun wan it thu happen.. && judging by 'this' relationship of ours, i dun tynk we'll last.. hais..

2day.. fuckyngg badd day.. !
fREAKYng late fer skewl.. !!
Got CAUGHT by fuckyng MISS TAN MEI MEI JOYCE !!! stupidd bloody tcher.. !
well had to wryte report coz of dat && also coz of beingg defiant 2wards her.. bloody shit.. hais.. deni hav to take out my studd .. walaoweyy so pain !.. how 2 take out lyke dhis.. & if i dun, i cnt sit fer my prelims .. ! shit uhh tcher.. CURSE YU GO DIE MISS TAN MEI MEI! stupid 30+ year old crazy women.. no wonder yur nowt married.. ! nobody would wan 2 marry a freakyng annoying person lyke yu ..!
arggh.. so freakyng piss off ! dun feel lyke goin skewl 2mrw.. !

2009-07-23T01:57:00.003+08:00

1.57am.. well .. here goes..

Happy 9th Month annie bbie !

even though i cnt spend tyme wib yu on our annie,

yu r owaes in my hart..

i love yu bbie..

its really true.. !

2009-07-23T00:50:00.017+08:00

Photo-Madness !

2009-07-23T00:29:00.004+08:00

TOMOROW 9TH MONTH ANNIE !

bby, it keeps on playing in my mind juz lyke a broken radio dat hurts deep..lyke scratches & stains on a disc' 9 months tapyy slalu gado .. taqk berdamai.. ' hrmm.. yup3.. we owaes argue over small matter.. && i realli wan it to stop.. but, everytyme we tried, we get ourselves into another freakingg arguement.. weird relationship.. i love hyme ?.. duhh ofcoz but i cnt bring myself to tynking dat he deserves some1 better.. well.. i tynk i better stop wryting bout all dhis shit..

hrmm.. 2day, quite fun .. actualli reali fun.. got 3 days mc.. & moreover, 2day my parents wen to tanjong pinang.. so we were left alonee @ home.. i mean the 3 of us , ila,aqah && me.. well.. much had happen && all i culd say were....... i EnJoyedd 2day.. ! oni my hubby noes y.. haha.. niwae bbie imy duhh..

2mrw whole day at home fer sure... cant celebrate 9th annie wib bbie.. stuck at home.. boredd to death by creatures.. haha.. so badd.. otye2 i mean by parents.. naggy parents i supose.. hwa hwa hwa.. niwae ppl im back .. !

2009-07-10T20:26:00.002+08:00

I hate 2dayy ! i dread 2day !! i dun feel lyke livingg after 2day.. !

i guess dhis is gudbye..

after yu call me sundal which i cnt acept,

i realisedd dat i cant take any of it nimore..

sundal ey boyy.. ?

taqk tawu citer taqkmo ckp lurh ey..

i oso hav pride okeyy..

dun treat me lyke trash..

i told myself dat its besh 4 us 2 b apart..

im trying hard 2 stay away frm yu..

im trying hard 2 4get yu..

im trying hard 2 move on even though deep inside i stil love yu..

im sowie if it hav 2 end this wayy..

but i realli hav 2 go..

yur hurting me more den ever..

ya i noe ive hurt yu but yu shuld understnd..

yu cnt control me dhis tight ..

im oni yur gerlfwen..

im NOWT yur WIFE..

i love yu ..

but i cnt alow yu 2 control my lyfe...

my parents dun control my lyfe so yu dun..

i nvr controlled yu ..!

i allow yu 2 do wadd yu wan to do, even smokingg..

although yu knew dat i hate smokers..

even though it hurts me a whole damn lot,

im stil gona face dhe facts..

im facing reality..

&& reality says yu deserve some1 better..

im nowt fit 2 b yur gerlfwen..

However though,

all dhe memories we had cann nvr b 4gotten..

&& our love wouldd owaes stay in my heart..

i love yu its true but deep down im fakingg..

im fakingg dhe smile dats on my face..

dhe laughter of disgrace..

im fakingg it 2 cover up dhis hurt && saddness..

i wun let dhe rain fall ...

i wun fall bck on my knees..

i wun drop lyke hw i usedd to..

ive grown much stronger day by day..

knowing dat ech cumingg day a day 2 4get..

a day to discover & a day 2 make history..

we'v made our history && it all ends here..

its juz another sorrow to overcume..

&& to learn..

as memories vividly flashes by,

i recount dhe ones we'v spent 2gther..

dhe ones i cant live 2 4get..

dhe ones dat will 4ever stayy..

i do love yu , yess its true..

my heart beats faster as it cracks wide open ..

as lightning arouses my heart ..

leaving deep scars..

its final..

ive made up my mindd..

im letting a fish live on its own a an ocean full of other fishes..

im letting my fish swim freely as he wishes to..

but i wan dat fish 2 noe dat hys dhe oni fish dat i ever admire..

&& dat is y hys dhe oni fish dat ever livedd in my fishbowl..

2009-07-03T13:04:00.001+08:00

omigosh.. im fooking stuck at home & i cant go out.. ! damn.. i hate my dad.. !
i hate hyme hardcore.. ! hais.. he dun even allow me to go out 2mrw.. bloody blooper.. stupidd reasons.. ! arggghhhhh ! im stinkyng boredd at home.. ! && i missing my bby truckloads.. !
hais.. & stupidd comp.. cant upload pics.. wow.. im freaking pissed off with everytyng.. !! stupid dupidd ..

2009-07-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

25 June 2009 - 26 June 2009
wen thu Tanjung Pinang which was located in Indon..
haiyo.. took ferry..
quite fun..
but err.. Singapore is way way way more better !
Cleaner enviroment.. !
Suitable Weather..
Hawter guyys..
mom got business to do so we kinda tag along ..
2nd sys was in vietnam fer her soccer match..
hahas.. well .. reached singapore, wen bck hme ..
7 Days quaratine.. !
boredd.. !
& i miss hyme..

Today ..
fetch 2nd sys @ airport..
ate & bckk hme..
ntgg much to sayy..

bby..

i miss yu so much..

its been lyke omost a week dat i hav nowt seen yu..

i miss yu lyke hell..

& & i bet its hard fer us 2 trust ech other..

but3.. i lov yu damn loads..

i noee dhers been alot of conflicts recently..

but if yu tynk i dun lov yu bby,

yur wrongg..

i lov yu lyke hell && i wuld nvr leave yu..

i miss yu so muchh && i kept it insid..

i cry every nyte juz tynking of yu , do yu noe dat?

i find it hard to breathe w/o yu by my sid..

my heart realli aches & i duno y..

mayb bcoz i miss yu so badly..

damn3 ..

i cnt live w/o yu b ..

yu understand.. !

2009-06-29T17:39:00.002+08:00

7 Days Quarantine !
f**k so boredd otye. !
ntg to do at hme..
& hais.. im trying my best 2 trust yu but everytyme i tried, surely dhers sumtyng stoppng me frm trusting yu & surely i'll tynk of stupidd & crazyy tyngs dat yu'll do or yu betray me..

2009-06-23T20:01:00.002+08:00

Happi 8 mth Annie Babyy..

bby i miss yu so much..

&& nw 8mths 2gether, i realised bby dat yu r my lyfe

& i dun wana let yu go..

im in love wib yu deeply b..

but3 Thers seems lyk ppl2 r trying 2 tear us apart..

bby I reali dun wana lose yu ..

I love yu so much..

I cnt c yu down lyke dhis..

b.. after evertyng we’v been thru,

after every sacrifice

& after every hardship,

I swear dat im in love wib yu..

b.. I cant imagine my lyfe w/o yu..

hais.. I miss yu .. I reali2 miss yu..

& I noe yu wun betray me ..

ryte?..

bby.. I nid yu..

muhd shafiee, I nid yu .. !

2009-06-16T11:54:00.002+08:00

Otye.. i cnt myself tynkingg wad i dyd wrongg.. ?
omigosh isit about skipping skewl ?..
it totally got ntg to do wib yu .. !
cumon.. its my lyfe & yu dun cntrol it.. !
hrmm.. well i dun care if yu decided to pull yurself away from me ..
its nowt lyke ive hurt yu or anytyngg..
& babe i reali tot yu change ! but it turns out yu dydnt !..
well.. i cant be bothered wib all dhis..
its nowt lyke i only got yu as a fwen ?? !..
hello.. seriously.. tynk b4 yu do .. yu owaes do b4 yu tynk..
hrmms.. nwt trying to b rude or anytnygg..
but seriously wads with dat cold shoulder?
stil wonder wad ive done..
Nowt trying to b Fana but anytyme babe, anytyme..

2009-06-15T22:49:00.002+08:00

weylo..
otye2.. sowie3 ferr late updatee..

14 June 09
Ytd.. wen thu Istia Bday Partyy @ Pasir ris beach.. !
Fun fun Fun..
Well Hapii bday istia.. ! whopps nowt yett.. wen dhe tyme is ryte i'll wishh yu babe.. !
niwae reali enjoyyedd..
istia fwens were all dher; includingg bobo, hys fwen, afiqq && my hubby.. huhu..
errmm..otye so wen out early arndd 2+ & reachd hme arnd 10+.. wibb istia.. well
bby imysm! ..

Otye so 2day in dhe mrning, met TyDy in cp..
wen Jurongg West to swim.. fun fun fun !!!!
opss.. fergiot 2 mention wib my bby.. !
reali3 funn !
huhu.. so fun ..
xtremly fun.. but tyringg .. !
nvm.. nw blogging while doingg Courseworkk.. ! boredd..
hrmm.. well.. I love TyDy !
huhu.. but3 i love my bby piee more.. !

niwae b dun wori lurhh ,, i wun leave yu i promise.. !
after everytng we'v been thru, i wun leave yu b..

2009-06-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

Shioqq SEndirii =)

2009-06-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Complications !!
otye im boredd.. fer dhe whole mth of June , i hav to attend skewl frm 8-4pm.. ! sioww .. crazyy ryte.. but eventuali i didnt .. haha yu noe me.. i hate skewl.. i hate tchers.. hrmms.. otye2..

juz got to noe KHai & seriously ABdillah is crazy !..
he noes my bf finding hyme & yet he stil got dhe nerve to say ily to me .. !
otye despo !

hrmm.. && imy bby..
niwae ntgg much to blogg bout.. juz boredd dats all..
&& owhh ya i fergot..
ytd wen thu jemputan pat hougang den got dhis kiyut matrep but but but i dun lyke coz of sme reasons.. & he laid watchful eyes on me.. omigosh.. crazy.. haha.. bby, ily..
well dhe day b4, got another jemputan at Lagun Sari Restaurant.. && dhe waiters were lyke omigosh freak.. hahas.. hrmms.. nwt my tyme yet..

i dun feel lykje goin skewl again.. boredd3 !! hais..

2009-06-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

Omigoshh !
i juz finish watchingg Twilight again..
& & i realli miss hyme so so much..
bby i mis yu.. hais..
feel lyke crying.. woohoo..
im gona watch it again.. !
& again..
& again..
edward is so so xtremely superb swit..
if oni my b is lyke dat..
i cn imagine ..
otye.. i miss my bby.. i miss hyme so so much...
owh goshh.. i tynk i fell in love wib edward.. !

2009-06-04T17:33:00.003+08:00

Hais.. im totally confusedd!.. otyes apit pat bintan fer 3 days.. naqk ckp windu to windu lurh.. naqk ckp saket hati mmng nurul dary dulu saket hati psal sesuatu bende.. well .. ive learnedd alot of tyngs & heard alot of tyngs thruout but i juz kept it insid.. lupe2 nyer ................... hais.. nurul da taqk naqk gado lgy psal dier.. but3.. susa naqk lupekn.. coz dhis heart still ache & yu juz wun understndd.. i duno wadd esle to do.. 4get dhe past??.. hw cn i possibly do dat.. well.. kadang2 nurul menyesal matae ngn dier tapy nurul btol2 cygg dier.. but but but.. does he really love me lyke hw much i loved hyme.. ?.. nurul taqk rase.. nurul maceh terpkir2 asl dier mintaq nurul stead dulu.. nurul maceh ingt everytyng!! evertyng yu dyd wib her.. lgypon dulu she btol2 cygg yu, y yu tingalkn her?.. y pick me?.. 7mths nurul kept tynking bout all dhis.. i duno eyy.. y muz i keep hurtingg myself dhis wayy.. cn i trust dhose words of yurs?.. do yu really love me?.. or am i juz yur toy?.. asl tingalkn dier?.. skrng nurul rase bersala psal wadd yu dyd to her dulu.. will yu leave me lyke hw yu left her?.. will yu do dat?.. yu still love her kan?.. hais.. im sick of playing games.. im sick and confuse at it.. nurul bukan naqk ungkit mase lalu tapy nurul maceh saket hati & nurul dun wan it to continue.. well nurul pon ader uwat sala jugak dat tyme.. im realli sowie.. but yu duno yet aper sala nurul..

Sumpah nurul cygg Shafiee whole-heartedly..

2009-06-01T18:32:00.005+08:00

29 MAY 2009

Dinner @ DOWNtown EAst

got family function @ downtown east so we had dinner at Sakura Restaurant.. fun ! & omigosh dhis kiyut Waiter asked fer my numb.. ! errr.. but but but i told hyme i wasnt interestedd.. huhu.. nahh nvm.. setia pade yg satu..

2009-06-01T18:19:00.003+08:00

NYTE STUDY wib lunaTICS ..

2009-06-01T17:41:00.004+08:00

omigosh.. !!!
Finally...! dyd my Mly olvl exam juz nw and it was darn hard.. actuali i wasnt quite prepared dats y i kinda find dha paper hard.. huhu.. dun tynk im gona ace it man.. gosh.. i shuld hav studied 'peribahasa' .. !!! arrgghh .. wads dher to brag about wen i olreadi dyd dha paper.. well juz wait fer dhe results which i noe im gona flungg..!!! heck care... Nurul pasrahh... !! its up to fate nw..

30 May 09
well.. managed to solve my prob wibb INA.. ermm,, well i dydnt tynk it was worth while fyting over a guyy.. fyting over hyme.. but eventhough we'r okeyy, i stil findd myself achingg insid.. hais.. nobody noes hw it feels .. puting others ferst b4 myself.. hais .. if oni yu knew hw my heart feels.. im doing dhis fer yu b.. ya i do miss being fwens wibb her but still .......... nurul maceh rase sakeq hati taw.. but nurul juz try to 4get everytyng.. 'buang yg keroh ambil yg jernih' .. leave dha past, start anew... hrmm... i dun wana fuss bout it nimre.. juz try 2 4get bout it nurul..! hais..

i will still remember...

i wont 4get..

but i will 4giv..

2009-05-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

Happy 7mth Anni Bie !

i love yu so much much..

i miss yu bby.. hais..

yu r my evertyng muhd shafiee..

dun ever leave me..

omigoshh.. i miss hyme so much..

weak ah pp8 low..

hais.. nvm..

but but but.. seriously i miss hyme superb much..

i miss hys smile..

i miss hys laugh..

i miss hys kisses..

i miss hys hug..

i miss hys nonsensical behaviour..

& & & I miss wen he usedd to BULLY me..

wakaka.. bigg bully.. bf abuse.. haahs

i miss yu b ..

2009-05-22T18:07:00.002+08:00

Weyllo.. =)
omigosh.. finally exams ends.. well stil got OLvl Mly cuming up so cnt logon too often.. cnt enjoy lyfe nw atleast nwt yet.. 2 mre weeks.. !! upcuming paper!!.. omigosh so so stress.. so so scary.. aiya i'll flung fer sure.. nvr dyd pass mly wib flying colour.. huhu..

otyes to strt of,,,

19 May 09

wen thu watch Home United VS PEA(Thai) ..

score:

3-1

if im nwt wrong.. having STMs lately so kinda ferget tyngs.. huhu

saw AFeeQ & Fauzan ..

20 May 09

after skwel wen thu Jln Bsar Stadium thu watch Sec skewl gerls soccer semi-final..

[1st match] Siglap sec VS Queensway sec

score:

1-0

[2nd match] AMK sec VS Bowen sec

score:

0-1

if im nwt wrong.. dydnt folow dat much..

saw bobo & family, u16 gerls, cik omar.............

after dat, wen thu eat @ Bugis till 7+ den off hme..

21 May 09

wen thu watch Malaysia u23 VS SIngapore u23

score:

3-0

surprising isnt it..

huhu.. niwae b4 dat, wen thu tamp met istia & AfeeQ..

istia was late so i had to wait fer her fer awhile den came 3 crazy ITE guys..

asked fer my numbb but den i ran away..

stalker..! dhey folow..

met istia, walked to mac saw dhis anothyer 3 guys..

omigosh2.. dhey were lyke asking name,, skewl etc..

attch ?

single?

well obviously i said im attch..

den i pick-point them to istia saying she was available..

huhu.. bigg-bully arent i.. huhu..

@ jln bsr stadium, saw coach phillip..

& Amirul frm camp Obor..

owh gosh i miss dhem so darn much..

well.. & guess who we saw.. Waliyah..

hrmm.. NO commenTS.. !

well.. ytd made me realise dat i love apit so much..

huhu.. serious yu noe..

well.. dhers stil more but im too lazy to type it out..

22 may 09..

wheyy3.. 2MRw its OUR ANNi .. =)
well since i wun b on9 2mrw, Let me juz say dhis..

HAPPY 7MTH ANNI BBY ..

ILY SO MUCH ..!

NOBODY CAN EVER TAKE YUR PLACE YG..

REMEMBER DAT I'LL OWAES B DHER BY YUR SIDE BBY..

2009-05-22T17:53:00.005+08:00

2009-05-12T20:21:00.003+08:00

Errr.. hais.. to start of, 2day was a reali bad bad day.. i hate 2day.. mrning met amni & faiz outside NVSS.. den wen to eat at rivervale plaza.. den wen bck to NVss to fetch Athirah... saw INA!.. & her mom.. sial lurh pompan taqkyah naqk ngokk owang atas bwah kn..! well i stared her bck & gave her dat sacarstic smile.. okeyy3 i tot she was pwetty @ ferst but wad heckk she so fugly lyke a fucking damn cow.. hrmm.. wen to blk 238.. hais.. which i regretedd .. hais..

i duno y i hav dhis fucking feelling of hatred.. ergghh!! omg.. serious shit idk wadd im feeling.. hate?.. love? angerr?.. Dhis ques keeps playing around my tots .. ' im not strong enuff to carry on.. does he reali love me?.. or does he juz wans to toy around wib me?.. ' siallah.. seriously im nowt strong to go on any longer.. but i realli love hyme so muchh.. sometymes i feel dat wen a person leaves hyme/her, it doesnt mean she/he dun love hyme/her, it oni means dat he/her isnt strong enuf to continue dhis rs.. hais.. bby.. sowie fer keeping evertyngg in me.. but i juz duno hw to set it free.. tyme chnges destiny.. it chnges fate.. it chnges lyfe.. it chnges oneself.. it chnges love.. hais.. saket sakk hati.. yu wuldnt noe wadd im feeling ryte nw coz i, too cn tell hw i feel.. every single day i wonder, cn he b trustedd.. i dun trust hyme nimore.. its juz lyke the trust fer hyme has completely fade.. fade to ashes.. hrmm..

Guys will stay guyss.. dheyy r all dhe same.. maenkn perasaan pompan ajerr.. isnt it true.. ? guys take everytyng so freely.. dher r other fishes in the sea.. hrmm.. guys r juz guys & dhey will nvr understandd gerls.. its juz dhem & their world of ego ... y do dhey lyke to hurt gerls.. ? even if she says shes fine or dhers ntgg bothering her, ther reali is smetyngg hurtful he has done to make her feel so hurt, so painful .. i juz dun understandd.. hais.. nvm.. guys cume naqk brg gerls jer.. i noticedd dat.. klaw taqk bagy dhey will tend to find other gerls.. owaes dhe same.. hais.. nmpak pompan jambu jerr sume tackle tingalkn matae dowang.. siakk jer.. mcmner pompan sume taqk tingalkn.. uwat saket hati jer kn..wad heckk.. hais.. ive learnedd dhis slowly thru all dhe years befriending guyss.. playboyy tetap playboyy.. hrmm.. well gues dher isnt anytyng to write nimore.. i juz find it hardd reali hard..

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2009-05-07T12:43:00.000+08:00

Omg !! Olvl prelim exams seriously damn difficult. Well im prepared to fail.. huhu.. paper 1 was quite alryte.. consisit of compo & letter writing.. hrmm.. took around 1hr 30mins to entirely finish my compo.. & another 30mins on letter writing.. hais.. im prepared to fail my paper 2 though.. olvl standard?? .. gosh its damn hard seriously.. I cnt even understand the compre section & xpect me to answer dhe ques ??.. bullshit.. no hope to pass lurh.. & wads dhe word ‘tohmahan’ ?? hahas.. I nvr heard of dat word ever in my lyfe.. haiyo .. mly so hard leii..! well all I cn do nw is juz pray.. & ermm .. a lot of tyngs goin thru my mind making it hard fer me to tynkk.. mayb dats dhe reason y I cnt fully comprehend dhe situpidd mly paper.. huhu..

To Hyme:
I hope evertyngg goes well .. I reali dun wan to fyte nimre.. im sowie.. hais.. wenever I tyng of it, i’l get angry & frustrated easily.. I juz keep pushing my anger to you… blaming yu fer evertyng yu do.. hrmm.. its not bout smoking dear.. ya I noe I dislike smokers but it doesn’t matter if yu cnt quit smoking.. I dun mind.. but its besh fer yu.. hrmm.. nahh.. im nowt angry coz of dat.. its juz I tynk bout yu & her.. ya I noe yu & her r ntgg nw but dhe past brings bck every single hurt dat was felt.. that is y I find it hard to trust yu .. eventhough shes attch.. I noe her attitude.. I juz noe her.. dhe most outrages gerl in my entire name list. & dats y I hatee her.. but sowie lurh if yu dun lyke me hating her.. Its juz a disease dat cnt be curedd.. hais.. nvm lurh.. yu duno..

2009-05-06T19:00:00.002+08:00

“After my first…I built this suit of armor.So strong, so invulnerable.I came across you.Slowly my guard was let down. So, so vulnerable to pain and despair.A love so perfect, so beautiful Was the double edged sword.One side so sweet, So dull of worry, So full of love.The other so sharp of worry, So deadly with confusion, So overcome of aberrancy.They meet at the apex.The sword was the only thing,The only thing to pierce through the armor.Through the mind, the soul, the heart…The sword tears a hole. The sharpest of sides is numb to pain,The dull side brings a pain.A pain so excruciating the pain unreal the suffering so great.This side pierces the mind, the soul, the heart..The wound lasting and irreparable.A pain never to leave.A pain that allows you to live but in turn, It kills the mind, the soul, the heart. A pain that may lie dormant. Only to arise and hurt more than it ever did.But through all doubt and suffering. The love was worth the pain.The love so perfect so beautiful.Was worth the pain, Was worth the death of me, Was worth losing everything I ever had.Even if it was you that I lost.”

2009-05-06T18:31:00.002+08:00

Trust ?..
wads dhe meaning to it?...
loving smeone is hard wen dher is no trust between ech other.. hais.. y is dat so.. y cnt i trust hyme.. ?
y do i find it hard to trust..
mayb i cnt get 'it' out of my head.. argghhh.. hais.. i juz duno wad to do nimre.. aqku pasrah.. i giv up.. everytyng dher is to love.. i juz giv up.. i cnt make nimre decisions.. i dun even noe wadd im feeling.. i reali love hyme but.. i cnt figure out wadd to do .. i fear love, for it is harmful.. i fear tyme, for which it creates destiny.. bby, i reali tynk im not dhe ryte one fer yu .. i juz keep tearing yur heart to pieces.. creatingg distance spaces between us.. im so sowie if i hurt yu tremendously.. i kept tynking dat yu still hav a crush on her, loving her more den me.. feel me deep coz i fear yu most.. im afraid.. so afraid of trustingg yu.. ya i noe yu used to lyke her even wen we'r attch.. bby hw long has it been?.. juz one ques and yu answered it.. dat was all i wantedd to noe.. hrmm.. i noe wadd im gonna do.. klaw i ader hal ngn ina, i'll make sure yu wun get involve wib it.. i'll make sure yu r nomore wib me aru i settle..so her bro wun find yu.. hrmm.. i noe wadd im gona do.. its juz it.. mayb dhers no fate.. mayb we werent....................... hais..

2009-05-01T12:53:00.010+08:00

2009-05-01T12:06:00.002+08:00

omg..
cnt believe wadd happen ytd.. !
smetyngg weird happen.. xtremly weird which scares dhe hell out of me.. errmm.. nowt to dhe xtreme.. ermm.. its juz lyke it posesses me but den im olryte nw.. hrmm.. juz feeling abit sore.. errr... & i felt as if smeones watching over me everytyme..

hais niwae cnt b bothered by all dhe ''YPs" .. should noe hu.. please lurh if yu wana hav a say, say it ryte in front of my face biatchh.. hrmm.. hopeless.. uh.. who cares.. ' Hrp muke jer lawa tapyy perangai sundal'.. otye2.. im nowt covetous or anytyng but i juz cnt bring myself befriending her.. mayb bcoz vivid flashbacks owaes occur wen i c her !.. which i really rancor alot.. ya okey shes pwetty & all but if she bhaves unruly .. ive got an immensive grugde on her.. !! urghh.. utterly defiant.. otye2 stop manuscripting and implying on her readi.. i got lots of better tyngs to engross bout.. feel lyke lacerating her.. urgghh!!!!

hais.. realli bored wib lyfe.. juz dhe same all routine i hav to go thru ech hellious dayy.. hrmm.. mly Olvl cuming & i dun tynk i will pass.. huhu..& 3 mths+ to Nlvl.. scary.. hrmm.. otyes den till here.. chapps..

2009-04-29T13:06:00.002+08:00

woohoo.. wow.. so long dydnt blogg.. niwae changing link soon.. huhu..
ermm.. well.. past few days been so shacky.. huhu.. shacky? is that a word.. so pressured wib skewl workk especially wib tchers2.. ehermm.. english cher2, mly cher2, combine humans cher2 & loads2 moree.. ermm .. lyfes getting more & more complicatedd.. grand-pa2 admitted to hospital.. hrmms.. so sadd.. hais..

23 April 09..

Happi bday ADeq AQAh !

25 aPRIL 08

bought fer her 2 printed T's..

Ben TeN & Dead Bull ..

owh goshh ..

well, got bbq @ nyte, celebrated her bday..

& aqah i expect smetyng frm yu bck otye dumb2..

stead wib aherm3 oso nvr tell me ..

b4 bbq went to old police acadamy to watch match..

fetch her bck frm dher den wen straight to bedok condo ..

took cab wib apit ourselves..

aunts, uncles, cousins, fwens were olreadi dher wen we reached dhe bbq pit..

huhu.. seriously speakingg, my cousins r all so darn hawt !..

hrmm.. envy dhem loads.. huhu

Well denn.. had a fun tyme.. & ya fergot ..

Eva slept over at our hse dat day.. so fun fun fun..

dhe nex day, my yg2 cume my hse in the afternoon..

den around 4+ Eva & i went 2 play soccer @ Loyang Pri..

so tyringg..

hrmm.. niwae ntgg much thu write nowadays..

well.. 2mrw MuhD Alif Bin johari's Bdayy.. =)

2009-04-23T20:28:00.001+08:00

tchers who r reading my blog, juz wana say welcum.. feel free to browse aroundd & read bout my LYFE... !!!
well miss tan mei mei, juz wana say dhis.. dun try to b smetyng yur nowt .. ! we aint insulting yu its juz true.. evertyng.. hrmm.. well i said sorrie ryte.. it was sincere but den yu got us into deep shit wib discipline & yu tynk yur stil in the ryte.. hrmm.. well ntg thu say .. as yu wish .. juz keeping quiet ..

hatred reveals every single flaw present in a human being.

Anger can kill thousand delicate dandelions.

A broken heart cant simply heal within a short tyme, it oni heals wen love is present.

smetymes being in love doesnt owaes means having to own

dat person nor loving dat person mean being a part of their lyfe..

i juz dun understand y everytyng changes wen shes around..

it makes no sense..

it juz makes me sick..

hate..

hatred..

i juz cant stand her nimre.. hais.. i duno y.. its juz dhis unpleasent feeling stuck ryte down me.. to hate & to envy.. i juz cant stop thinking dat shes good enuff fer hyme & im nowt.. is it true.. coz as it seems, theyy both make a perfect couple.. i juz cn feel it.. ermm .. ever tot dat yur love one isnt fitted to be.. tyme may seem fragile but dhe heart is more breakable. superb.. hais.. is it by purpose ?! wadever yur doin.. if yu wan 'it' badly, yu cn hav it as long as 'it' is hapii.. fuck lurh.. damn it.. i juz cant believe wad hapen juz nw.. it juz hapens so fast dat my heart aches & these tears shed.. im juz nowt in dhe mood 2day.. napfa tyres me out.. she freaks me out.. making it all worst ech dayy.. & ech dayy my trust fades.. dhe mre i c her dhe mre it fades.. dhe mre she ryte infrnt of my eyes dhe mre i ponder away struggling to keep a distance frm hyme.. i dun understand y im feeling dhis way.. mayb its a sign or smetyng which i believe isnt smetyng good.. hais.. i juz cant describ dhis feeling.. so b it.. who cares .. nobody oso give a damn.. btw..

Happy 6 Month Anni apit bby..

& dhis is wad happens..

i dun wan thu hav thu fyte again..

i dun wana hav thu leave yu nimre..

i love yu so much..

but it aches insid..

can i regain yur trust..

i juz dun seem to tynk..

dat yu love me..

y am i tynking dhis way..

is it true..??

or..

....................................

2009-04-22T09:46:00.005+08:00

wey3.. outdated.. !
ermm.. Stil wib my yg2 ..
alot of tyngs happen lately, exciting & hurtful..
he met my family.. my WHOLE family.. ! huhu =)
ermm.. hp flooded wib photos will upload wen i got fwee tyme..
niwae juz took my FNN practical N'LEvel exam.. !!
woohhoo.. so fun .. fun.. fun..
wan cook again..
well i cooked ..
GAdo-Gado , Tom Yam Soup & Fruit pizza Tart.. yummy.. =)
& hell saw dat gerl again ytd... ! yu noe who..
juz spoils my MOOD.. !
arggh!!..
hais.. sowie bby but i reali got no mood ytd after seeing dat uhhh...
huhu.. well .. tyredd.. clppy.. nowt in dhe mood to blog nw.. juz updating..
byebbye..

'2mrw 23 April 09 is our 6th MOnth ANNieee' .. =)

remember it yae..

i love yu so much yg2..

2009-04-10T13:48:00.002+08:00

wad heck..
having reali bad flu inclusive of a reali bad headache..!
& i juz feel so damn weak..
feel lyke dhe world is gona crash down on me..
hais.. MOod SWings..
reali binget wib ppl2 uh..
juz feel lyke killing myself..
juz feel so out of place..

REdundant..

dhers no nid thu write all dhis shit..
coz wad i feel nw isnt expressable..
y mood swings arent approchable..
so ppl dun sms me nor kol me coz i wont be answering it..
i wun be beating bout a bush playing lies along wib hatred..
i wun cry infront of yu grasping air on dhe surface of an enclose area..
i wun lie fer dhe sake of heaven if displease is wadd wil happen..
i wun live a breath even if yu wan me thu fer dha sake of those others..
if yu comprehend dhese instincts den that yu wil noe
hw & wad im feeling insid..
dhe urge thu let it go..
coz keeping it in.. blocking it out..
fer it i cnt tell yu wad my tots r till 2date..
avoidin yu is simple but i'v made 1 mistake ..
coz leaving yu, regrets..

& that i wun do it again..

but deep insid dhis heart..

hurt & lost derives..

i will leave wen dhe tyme comes..

& yu will be in dhe hands of others'..

fear & loss..

...

2009-04-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

8 april 09

hais.. juz dun feel ryte..
no mood thu blogg ..
so ya..
juz exasperatedd by smetyngg..
ergghh.. !

im sowie baby bout juz nw..

i dydnt mean thu hurt yu..

i dydnt mean thu make yu jeles..

i dydnt mean thu make yu cry..

i wun leave yu..

dun wori..

i love yu bby..

so so much..

pliwsh fergive me ..

2009-04-05T15:39:00.003+08:00

5 March 09..

=) fun..!!

its juz dha two of us again..!

juz reached home.. 3.40 blogging..

early mrning met apit..

wen thu anchorvale cc 2 swim..

but b4 dat ate breakfast @ macs..

swim.. swim.. swim til 11am..

blah.. blah.. blah..

den wen thu downtown east..

watched movie..

"UNBORN"

scary but wasnt paying attntion thu it..

huhu..

ermm.. den wen thu pasir ris park dher..

niwae..

juz wana say thankiew my baby apit fer dha treat juz nw..

well, he paid fer everytyngg..

thanks so so much b..

i love yu so much..

2009-04-02T20:11:00.005+08:00

Woohoo.. well3.. dydnt post ferr so longg.. ! sowie peepsters..

hrmms.. been busi ferr quite a while..

skewl.. studies.. fwens.. & owh ya.. yu guyys noe i'v readi

PAtch wibb Apit ryte.. =) so ya..

otyes2 lets begin..

27 March 09

Wen thu hougang stadium.. got sports dayy..

sports heats was a bore.. regret attending.. but

wad dha heckk .. stil hav thu attend... after dat wen thu mit apiit..

huhu.. den got chalet.. family chalet..

nyte, bbq..

slept @ 2am..

28 March 09

mrning gott tuition but we ended up skippingg it.. =)

wen bck thu chalet, swinmming..

till 4pm.. idiot guyys ..

they cn actuali ask fer numbb.. huhu.. noobs

@ nyte, met apit..

owh goshh.. istia' mom saww..!

bbq again..

29 march 09

woke up @ 7am..

tyredd..!

hrmms.. pack up stuff & head fer home..

everyone came bck my hse..

slept..

eat..

gossipps..

den wen thu whitesand wib istia, amirly & aqah..

blah..blah..blah..

30 march 09

Happi bdae SHAHRUL.. !

after skewl wen thu slack wibb my baby, ajra, nabil & ofcoz bdae boii.. =)

huhu.. fun.. day enjoyedd..

wen hme @ 8pm..

emo dayy.. huhu...

criedd infront of my baby again..

errrr.. embarrasingg..

but owh gosh hes reali swit..

dats y i love hyme so much..

1 APRIL 09

WEN thu SEntosa wibb Apit.. !

fun.. fun.. fun..

juz dha two of us..!

day enjoyyedd.. =)

reach hme around 5pm..

niwae i fergot wadd i dyd fer dha past few days.. huhu

realli busi lately..

huhu..

Muhammad shafiee bin Muhammad Bahari,

[correct me if im wrong.. =)]

i promise thu owaes love yu.. !

i promise thu owaes b dher fer yu..

i promise thu owaes make yu hapi.. =)

i promise my heart & soul thu b wibb yu..

i love yu so much..

baby dun ever leave me.. !

i cant imagine lyfe w/o yu..

huhu..

baby thankz fer sacrificing so much..!

i oni realize it nw.. had i realized it sooner..

baby fergive me if i ever hurt yu or if i ever made

sadd or angry..

i'll wun leave yu..

& i promise yu dat..

after evertyngg we'v been thru..

i miss yu so muchh.. !

i miss yu every single minit im left w/o yu..

i miss yur smile

& i miss yur huggs..

i miss yur kisses.. =)

yur my ferst baby & dat i realize..

2009-03-21T17:20:00.002+08:00

BORED !! & NTGG THU DO AT HOME..

INSTEAD OF CLPPINGG dhis is wad ive done.. huhu..

I LOVE YU.. !

2009-03-21T17:16:00.004+08:00

21 MARCH 09

got flagg day 2day @ amk hub..

bowinkk..
huhu...

reali tyredd..

body achingg..

muscle cramp..

eyes swollen..

feelingg blue..

2009-03-21T17:00:00.006+08:00

♥ Happy Birthday NYayii =) ♥
.. 20 MARCH 09 ..

Wen thu Simpangg Bedok on 20 march around 9.30pm till 2+ in dha mrning..

price of food was accumilatedd up thu $350 huhu.. WOW.. !

hahas.. hu cares niwae.. ! =)

fun fun fun..

2009-03-21T16:41:00.004+08:00

20 MARCH 09
ILY PPL.. ♥

smetymes yu can hide anger or hatred..

but Lovingg yu is wadd i cant hide norr am i in nidd of yu babyy ..

isit growingg or is it still faddingg?..

isit redundant?

isit love?

isit lust?

or isit juz infatuation..?

2009-03-19T22:35:00.012+08:00

19 march 09

pics can tell us a thousandd storyy .. !
well .. crazzy tyme.. !
& i hate yu fuckingg physic t'cher..
!!!
♥♥♥My CRaziest cHIPpy CHAppy Idioccts♥♥♥

2009-03-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel lyke dher is no use leavingg in dhis worldd nimre.. dhers an answer bhindd every ques but isit to mine?.. hais.. i juz feel so cockedd up lately.. i cant justifyy dha resons to it.. can i ferget everytyngg.. ? can i dismiss every single sanimatic beings present in my lyfe..? love?.. wadds dha meaning thu it.. hate?.. wadd heartfelt warmth grows upon hatred.. Lyfe?.. insanity .. treasury.. decisions.. ! can i make my self disappear or better still invinsible thu dhe world of unknown.. Nowadays i dun do stuff i usedd thu do.. i dun smile much.. i dun towk much.. i dun laugh much.. Nowadays im leavingg in my own fantasy .. my own worldd.. which summorise all unneeded memories which are kept deepest into the foreground of dhe ocean.. nowadays im someone who im nowt.. someone who has taken over every dead cells of my body.. i feel so lost in dhis horizon in dhis bermuda triangle.. even tears r ntg comparedd thu dhe hurt & heartache inside of me.. noone could ever understandd it.. its only a matter of tyme till pieces of shatteredness reowns itself & till tyme itself i gues every decision ive made & about thu make reveals self-efficiency & lack of self-love.. it aches 2 c dhe ppl i love feeling dismayedd.. feeling hurt & unalive.. but dhis feelingg & gesture aint wadd ppl define as happiness.. aint wadd ppl give in love & in lyfe.. can i juz endd it.. ? can i juz endd me..?

2009-03-17T17:35:00.004+08:00

sometymes being left alone is better than havingg others..
sometymes everytyngg said is better than done..
sometymes losiing somtyng precious makes us realise..
sometymes dhe words are hard thu ferget..
sometymes fergivngg is easier denn fergettingg..

15 March 09
well wen thu watch dhe guyys train at braddel ..
after dat wen thu vivo..
owh gosh thnks yu guuyss fer disturbingg me.. huhu..
well actualii fauzan is reali kiyut.. !
yu guys r ryte.. hahas..
cant wait til sun!
met mom & aunt & dhe rest @ ws..
we thu haig road & bought an new phone.. huhu
cool..
well tyredd day.. so dydnt hav tyme thu blogg..

16 march 09
woke up late.. damn late..
hrmms.. guess i was reali tyredd.. !
sent my sys thu soccer training..
@ orchardd dher..
reach hme arndd 9+..

17 march 09
ntg muchh .. BORED.!
gott skewl 2day..
owh gosh dhers no Holiday ferr sec 4 isit?
damn lurhh..
so stress 2dayy.. !
boys r juz boys..
owh gosh do i make yu bois love me?,, !
.. cumon dher r other better gerls out dher..
hais..
cant standd it nimre..!
y b so stress up bcoz ob dhis..
huhu.. makes no sense.. !
hrmm.. no mood lurhh..

Pics will be postedd Ltrr..
if i have dhe mood thu..

2009-03-13T16:09:00.005+08:00

ARGHHH!! cyberbullying!!

Irah Before!
Irah After !

hahas .. ntgg better 2 do.. !

2009-03-13T15:34:00.006+08:00

my stupidd face..! huhu!

13 March 09

Fun fun fun..

got Cross country early in dha morning around 7.30am ..

which was located @ Riverside parkk near anchorvale CC..
but b4 dat wen thu buyy food @ cp Macs

Heavy breakfast.. huhu

owh goshh.. towkked thu dha ITE balestier guyy..

dhe ARRogant one..

turns out hys darn nice.. !

" dun judge a book by its cover!"

juz F.YI, dhe toilet located @ riverside parkk STinkss..!

Cross Country

got

2ND position !!

in dhe sec4 & sec 5 lvl !! huhu..

so happi..

hahas.. ermm .. after dat, wen bck thu skewl..

got NE programme..

house mittingg & bckk home..

but b4 dat, wen thu class & took " BITCHY pics.. "

hahas.. den thu cp ..

ate at 1901 isit.. ? hahas

correct me if im wrongg..

huhu..

nw blogging..

ltr gott MIT DHE PARENTS SESSION.. !!

scary ..!

otyes denn..

im olreadi late..

nidd tu bath..

'stinkyy'

huhu.. =)

2009-03-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

8 March 09..

Morningg got soccer trainingg..

after trainingg had lunch+breakfast... huhu..

wen thu whitesand & den thu downtown east & den hme swit hme..

9 March 09..

Watchedd Tampines Rovers VS Sengkang Punggol !

2 -0

dydnt attendd skewl..

met istia & amiryl & syafiqah @ tamp library..

met ben, al-afiq & dhe rest of their other guyy

fwens @ dhe stadium..

Accidently met Amirul Hakim dherr.. huhu so fun fun fun..niwae dhe guys dher are lyke owh f~ hawtt.. huhu.. sowie but nowt interestedd.. ! ;)went bck around 11+pm wibb amirul..

10 March 09..

Happi BirthDay Fyryn !!

After skewl got detention .. dydnt wen thu sports heats & pyshic supp..

chat chat chat wibb irah duringg detentionn..

@ Nyte , owh gosh receivedd mcgg frm MUHD ALIF BIN JOHARI !!

aww..

i miss hyme so muchh..

hrmm.. well3 he'd promise dat he'll mcgg me every single dayy juz lyke last tyme..

wow .. im touchedd.. hahas

cant wait thu mit hymee.. !

well.. another tyng, a guyy gott my numbb frem izzati..

& hys name is hakim..
huhu.. hawt gyler siottss..

but but but im nowt interestedd remember.. so ya..

11 March 09..

boredd ntgg thu do 2dayy..

well got social studies test after skewl juz nw..

ended around 2.30pm..

den wen thu dhe library ..

read books,, chitty-chaps till 3.30pm..

reached hme around 4.45pm..

nw bloggingg..

boreddom Strikess.. !

2009-03-07T21:24:00.000+08:00

wadever it is, i dun gibb a damn.. tell me wadever yu lyke.. & keep dreamingg bout it..

Got skewl activity in dha morningg..
waited fer Irah fer bout 1Hr.. 8-9am.. but its otye thoughh.. i dun mindd..

while w8-ing ferr her, saw Hisyam & company.. Twice.. Thrice i cn say..

HAHas kiyutt..

hrmms.. Reachedd skewl..

so dher were lyke 4 skewl in total..

GReendale.. PEI HWA.. mONfort & ofcoz NCH..

hahas.. wad dhe hell hahas..

love dhe seminarr..

duringg break-tyme, Hisyam askked me thu get drinkk fer hyme.. hahas..

denn i askedd hyme thu say " PLwishh Nurul '' hahas..

ends up, all dhe monfort secc guuyys were sayingg it.. hahas

wow.. attraction ..

hrmm.. after dat wen 2 Simei..

niwae still wonderingg wadds wibb nazura ..

wads her intention fer sayingg all dat ??..

'haha' very funi.. i dun care..

hahass.. if yu lyke hyme, yu can hav hyme fer all yu wan..

kiyut couple i can infer..

hais..
juz findd it hardd thu believe nimre..

wadehell..

hais..

well, after Simei, wen thu Tampines mall..

saw Ajra dher..

BOUght short skirt frm 77th street..

which cost bout 40 bucks..

loves..

huhu..

otye denn..

BLogging soon..

2009-03-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

Nurul GET over hyme.. !
Move on..
Haiss..
If i do sometyngg out of league,
denn dhers a reson bhind it..
Im reali sowie if i hav 2 do dhis.. !
im reali reali sowie..!
Its gona hurt yu real badd..

2009-03-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

Lies will soon Unveil.. even dhe darkest secret will unleash.. Dhers a reson bhind it.. dhe truth will stink yu deep .. lyke shattered mirrors reversing every actions of dismay.. its nowt dat easy thu ferget memories.. its even worst thu ferget yu.. hatredd is wad yu feel insid ?.. heart-trobingg desires ?..

6 March 09..
2dayy wow darnn stress !
loads & loads of Probb..
fail olmost every single SUbb ject.. !!
hais.. after skewl met apit.. hais..
i juz duno wadd 2 sayy..
argghh.. its hardd keepingg it away frm hyme..
owhh goshh .. wadds wrongg wibb me..
i cant bear thu c hyme lyke dhis ..
but i ..
errr..
hais...
im reali sowie if i've hurt yu..
im reali reali sowie..
i dun wan it 2 happen dhis wayy ..
yu juz wun understandd..

Ferstly..
DAT Bitch.. !
arghh. !
wadever lurh eyy gerl..
so wad if im an 'Alian' bitch..
yur worst..
& stop Callingg ppl bitch..
shes nowt in dhe wrongg..
& wadd dhe hell.. read ppl mcgg anyhw..
sowie but its dhe fact ..
y dhe hell dyd yu say i so called 'influence' dhem thu bcume lyke me..
yur wrongg otye..
yu hate alians ? so waD bigg deal isit..
stop it wibb dhe nonsense..
yu said yu've helped herr by telling her all sorts of stuff.. ?
fiilled her mindd wibb all sorts of shit.. haiyo..
wadd irah wrote @ herr blogg were all true..
otye.. niwae wad dhe hell .. hate me fer wad & lyke i gibb a damn..
i dydnt even do anytyngg 2 yu ..
owh goshh ..
get a lyfe gerl..
nvm.. shall towk on MONDAY.. !

& ferr WARDA my dear god sys..
i'll findd dat gerll fer yu otye..
PPl if yu noe Hafidah frm Chij st joseph.. sec 3 xpress..
tell me.. !
gerl stop bugging Warda lurh arse..

hais..
i dun understand y im feelingg so fuckked up 2dayy..
y?..
hais..

2009-03-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

[cant hide expressions of certain desires.. & dher is no use turning bckk as wad past left us bear & apart..]

yay CA1 ended.. =)))
hrmms.. busi lately.. & damn my dad ferr lockingg dhe comp..
Buto samer lue lurhh eyy .. arggh.. i juz hate her.. haiss..
cey cey ceyy.. get HER out of my mindd plwish..
hrmms.. wadever it is i will NVR ever ever clique wib dat gerll ... !

owh GOShh .. !
i miss MUHD ALIF BIN JOHARI..!
so suddenly..
hrmm.. Nazrul is Attch thu Amalina..
errr.. its fine wibb me..
even after 1yr apart ,
i STIL cant FERGET hyme.. !
nvm.. if we reali blongg 2gther than fate will do its jobb..
its nowt a force or in purpose.. its a believe..
well lets start wibb 2dayy.. :

5 March 09..

ntg muchh.. got bck english test paper..
owh goshh.. got highest in class ferr Eng test paper..
but overall.. ermmm.. fail.. hahas..
stupid essay paper pull my marks downn.. !
got detention..

4 MArch 09..

ytd after skwell.. wen to BOwen sec ..
thu watch Siglap, Bowen, Amk & telok kurau sec soccer match..
huhu but unfortunately was postpone.. hahs..
sec 2 askedd fer a sec 4 gerll numbb.. hahas
omg.. saw ZAF.. !!!
so so kiyut.. hahas
wen hme after datt..

3 March 09..
2 March 09..
seriously i totally fergott where or wadd i dyd after skewl..
hahas..

1 March 09..

got Home United Training..
met Taufiqq & Eyya early in dhe morningg..
met Aqilah & her fwen dher..
hrmm.. After training slackk ..
rememberedd dha 'GOlden Monkeyyss'..
wen to whitesand & ate Burger king..
Foundd a necklace insidee my Bagg..
THankieww so muchh fer dha necklace Taufiqq..
hahas.. dats all..

=)

Single & unavailable..

2009-02-28T12:44:00.000+08:00

was too tired...ytd so i didnt blogg in..
so ya..
hrmms.. maths test guranteed to fail.. couldnt concentrate
lots of tots ..
english was certainly easy fer me..
hrmms.. after skewl wen hme.. chngedd denn slack
at opp Siglap secc dherr.. till aroundd 4.30..
wib jaez,matt,zul,fyryn,louis & ben..
fun.. fun..fun..
well but everyone ended up being EMO..
i was emo too & i got my own reasons ferr it..
otw to dha busstp located near west plaza dher,
a group of hawt guyys ask ferr numb but
den jaez dhey all were lyke staringg at the group of hawt guyy so they left..
they all wen bck sengkang so i was left alone ..
met syazana & amirah at elias CC..
took 88 to sengkang..
walked pass apit's blk.. owh goshh.. hais..
i miss hyme.. yesh i do..
denn we wen thu mustafa..
shop..shop..shop..
den syazana & i wen thu vivo city while waitingg fer
thu finish her tuition..
around 9.30pm, we wen thu mit amirah again..
den wen thu sengkang & took bus 89 to pasir ris..
at pasir ris, we wen thu DOwntown East..
slack at Macdnld while waitingg fer dha INdons..
Finally met dha INdons @ arnd 10.30..
wen bck home around..
12am..
tired !!

2009-02-26T19:01:00.001+08:00

Hatred runs thru every single bloodstream mending insid of me.. 4get bout everytyng & dha past.. i cant take it nimre.. sometymes tynking bout her makes me hate yu mre.. !

26 Feb 09..

Hrmms.. Late fer skewl.. woke up @ 7am.. ! common test starts 2day & i was late.. huhu.. well Social studies Test was easy.. mly was lyke owh gosh damn hardd... want thu give up on the test .. but well hahas.. got bck mly paper juz nw & gues wadd.. i passed !!!! well nowt wib flying colours but was the highest .. 37/60 & dats the highest.. wad the hell.. olevel cumingg & i cant believe im gettingg low mark fer mly.. !

Pc periodd watch consert ..

Foreign visitor visited our skewl..

their frem indonesia..

some of them were lyke owh goshh.. hawtt..

hrmms.. niwae , amni kol me during lesson juz nw..

& i tot wadd the hell happened but

den she asked me wad i told ina..

i was lyke "Blank" ..

wad dha hel dyd i told her..

hrmmms..

suppose thu mit her after skewl 2 settle dhis..

hrrmm..

but den dydnt met her..

slack in skewl wibb dha Indons'..

hahas.. their currently staying at costa sand resort in downtown east..

took pics..

funn.. but nowt quite in dha mood fer some reason..

hrmms.. wen thu eat @ kfc wibb..

irah,eunice,si xian, matt, jaezafiq, warda, & her..

i 'sound' a gerl from CHIJ st joseph..

asked if she were a minah rep.. huhu..

wen bck at 5pm..

nw bloggin & chating wib apit.. ! haiz..

i reali dun wan it thu hapen !

i love hyme so much i reali do.. but its the best wayy..

i duno hw thu xplain .. but everytyme i tynk of her, it makes me hate hyme more..

is it dha ryte tyng thu do ??????

hais =( sowie cygg..

2009-02-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

Facts can be written. even in the slightest of lies can be seen by actions.. if running away was as easy as goin on a 100m race.. i juz wuldnt get dat far.. its hardd thu let everytyngg loose.. grapplingg every single words sorrows thru my heart.. i take it ferr real & ther is nomre turningg back on wordds..

Hrmms.. 26 feb 09.. skewl was certainly as per normal.. dyd ntg much but towkk.. 2mrw common test wish me luckk.. =) hrmms.. change of time-table wed to thurs.. so finshed skewl at 1.15pm.. wen thu siglap sec wib jaezafiq.. met her gerl & met zul .. huhu.. juz knew dat zul was attch thu effy frem phss.. sec 2 guyy attch thu sec 4 gerll.. huhu.. can dat be.. ? hrmms.. accidentally mett Amirul HaKim outsid siglap secc.. hahas.. slack opp siglap sec wibb jaez, shazreena, zul, eva, amirah, herni & loads mre.. hrmms.. denn arnd 3+ wen thu whitesands alone.. emo-ing.. hahas.. took bus 359 & gosh was dher loads of "mat2 siglap" in dha bus.. got disturb.. huhu.. well2.. i was known as 1 of their "gerlfwen".. which eventualli is nowt true.. hahas.. they asked me my age blah.. blah..blah.. reach ws, accidentally met Amirul hakim & dha rest Again.. owh goshh .. fate huh.. slack at blk 114 till 5.30pm.. huhu late huh.. hrmms.. otye dats all .. nw studyingg.. cant concentrate hais.. duno y.. kinda mish apit but..

2009-02-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

If oni those words wuldnt hurt as much.. & if oni lies were the truth.. Even if nature were to change, my love fer it wuld 4ever stay.. perplx in a way unsaidd

2dayy bored.. ntg muchh.. hrmms.. skipped physic sup .. damn irritatingg t'cher.. playyedd arm wrestling in clas wib some bois .. studyy .. studyy..

gott mly assembly .. fun .. fun.. fun.. paiseh otye.. & owh gosh Ditto is so kiyut ferr a sec 1 guyy.. hahas.. after skewl met apit.. fought wib hyme & blah.. blah... blah.. denn met istia wen hme.. denn out again thu whitesand.. wen window shopping wib her.. ate ben & jerry ice-cream twice.. yummy.. yummy.. release my stress.. huhu.. goin 2 eat ben & jerry again 2mrw.. eventhough im caught wib flu.. & a bigg damn headache.. hais.. nw at hme blogging.. errrr dats all .. owh ya fergot .. mcg Nazrul juz nw askingg hyme whether he lykes istia or nowt denn ... blahs..

2009-02-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

23 FEb 09..
hrmms.. weylo.. ntg much thu say juz dha plain routine .. skewl .. skewl.. skewl.. bored.. after skewl tot i was goin thu reach hme early but eventuali saw Amni & FAtin frm northvista sec, slacking at RC under my void deck.. hahas.. so gues wadd, i joined in too.. huhu.. lgypon rizam suwoh lpak jugaq perr.. so i lpak uhh.. atleast dher are gerls .. had quite a long chat well sort of gossip.. Gossip gerls i can say.. i hate dhis fucking exasperating bitch.. huhu.. wana noe who, gues yurself uhh.. Biatch stealer.. blah blah blah.. dun wan towk bout her lurh.. piss off.. hrmms.. otye2.. continue,, i wen hme, chnge & denn wen thu slack again.. hahas.. got thu noe Izzati frm Loyang sec.. slack.. slack.. slack.. & den hme swit hme.. nw blogginG .. owh ya i fergot hais.. sick 2dayy.. contracted Flu.. i hate it .. gives me aches all over my bodyy..
& ya, 23rd yippee.. its our 4 mths ANni.. love yu baby.. =)

2009-02-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

22 FEb 09

ERR.. fun fun fun..
got soccer trainning at AMK sec under HOme united.. Era, eyzan, natasha & i were lyke dhe oni gerls training & we had thu train wib dhe guyss.. owh gosh .. dha other gerls from Deyi sec and some amk sec were juz lazing around so instead of turning up ferr dhe training dhey were juz slacking .. gosh Amk sec is damn bigg & nice.. hahas.. hrmmm.. also had thu wake up damn early.. so tiiring.. omg i dun go ferr lowerr sec guys so so sowie fitri & duno who frm HOme unitedd.. huhu.. Training ended arnd 10+ i tynk.. afterr dat era, eyzan, Raudah & i wen ferr so kol lunch or isit breakfast .. idk.. noob.. Raudahh is so kiyut.. ferr her age of 16, she actuali looks lyke a sec 1 gerl.. so adorable .. feel lyke pinching her.. shes reali damn nice mann.. & damn funi.. hahas.. den we wen SHoppingg ! 2 b exact, window shoppinG.. era & raudah wen searching & trying ferr gowns.. & i juz had thu adore it.. Nvm.. Owh ya fergot.. we wen thu AMK Hub & denn thu Juntion 8.. wen home around 4pm i tynk.. tired so straight away thu bed & denn blogg..
hahas.. dats all .. =) & 1 more tyng.. I MISS MY DEAR APit.. huhur.. !

2009-02-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

came bck frm camp obor tyngy.. errrr.. can say quite funn.. venue at tepak sireh near kampong glam dher... yummy yummy stuff.. Towk bout Olvl tyngy.. hrmms.. den went thu bugis street.. mit apit den home.. =) gudgerl mahh.. hrmms.. owh ya den wen thu playy soccer @ coral pri dher wib cuz.. huhu..

2009-02-20T20:37:00.000+08:00

PATCH BACK WIB MUHD SHAFIEE bIN MUHD BAHARI.. !!
i Love hyme so so much!!...
=)

2009-02-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

18 FEB 08..

23/10/08 - 18/2/09

Its dhe end of another relationship..! owhh goshh i can believe it.. hais.. i miss hyme so much.. 4 mre dayys till our anni but dhis happen.. y mus dhis happen?.. i love hyme so much.. so so much.. haiz.. can i go on wib my lyfe w/o hyme.. can i move on ?.. am i hapi w/o hyme?.. vividly remembering every memories we shared 2gtherr.. can i actuali 4get?.. is it real.. baby i love yu so much.. do yu reali hav dha intention 2 breakup.. do yu regret breaking up?.. i cant hold bck tear nomore.. every single minit of my lyfe i cry.. 4 dha fact of losing yu.. its hurts me mre wen yur wib some1 esle.. it mskes my heart ache so much thinkin bout yu.. waiting ferr yur kol or sms means so much.. can i hold it any longerr.. can i take dha pain.. ? i noe ppl says im better off w/o yu but their wrongg.. nw i noe hw bigg my love 2wards yu is.. yur pic i stil in my possesion.. yur love is wad i nid.. yur hugg is my desire.. yur kisses i dreamt of ech day.. its too late to hav yu bckk .. i love yu till eternity.. yur my ferst.. yur my last.. yur my everytyng.. muhd shafiee bin muhd bahari yu will ferever b in my harrt.. yu will ferever b mine.. im so so sowie if ive hurt yu.. im reali sowie.. baby.. i wish yu wuld b mine again.. i wish a thousand wishes ferr us to b 2gther lyke laast tyme.. i miss yu lyke a hell lot babyy..

& i wan yu bck.. !

2009-02-17T17:43:00.000+08:00

15 Feb 09.. =)

went thu Whitesand & Denn thu Giant..

ntg muchh thu do so ya .. huhu..

16 Feb 09 =)
Went thu watch Tampines Rovers VS Home Unitedd.. @ Tamp stadium.. owhh gosh was i damn late & hadd thu take cabb dher.. reach arnd 8+ wen kickoff was lyke ard 7.45pm.. huhu.. Earlier irah came thu my hse ferr coursework which was due last fri.. ! stressful.. lots of Hawt guyy btw.. hahas .. juz stating out facts..

2009-02-09T18:49:00.000+08:00

omg.. ! i miss yu BloGG.. =)
hahas.. hrmms.. weylo weylo weylo..
UpdateDD blogg :

23 OCTOBER 2008 --> attch to Muhd shafiee bin Muhd bahari
i love hyme so much ppl.. ! dun try thu steal hyme away frm me.. !

6-16 November 2008 --> went to Shah Alam, Kuala Lumpur

i miss KL.. i miss those days & tymes wen we'r 2gther.. under16 gerls team.. i wish we would be bck 2gther enjoying those days.. i still remember dha tymes wen we secretly went to dha thai's lvl & was caught by their coach.. they had to do forfeits hahas.. & dha tymes wen we secretly wen into their rooms them into ours.. what great tymes.. =) i still remember australian gerls singing dha song 'umbrella' & dha laughter shared by us frm different countries.. huhu.. still remember addies bday.. 12 midnyte, we secretly wen to her room & sabotage her.. poured powder all over her wen shes sleeping.. hahas.. otye2..

17 -19 November 08 --> wen to Camp Obor..

Bowink nothing muchh to do.. skip thir day of camp.. wen to sentosa wib under16 gerls.. love dhem..
9 December 08 --> my Bday ! hrmms.. wen out istia.. went to eastcoast.. hahas..wen cycling..

10 DEcember--> bbq at qilah hse.. !! fun fun fun.. wen bc dha nex dayy.. =)

16 December --> Era's Bday.. wen bowling at downtown with some under16 gerls.. fun fun

7 Febb 09.. =)

Hahas.. heres Some pics of my Dearez Fwenss.. =)& wadd we dyd in class..

Irah & me.. =) LOLing.. The clique 5.. hahas.. Lame..

2008-10-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

omg .. ! so long didnt wrote in.. ! lots of things happen 4 dhe pass hw many months or so..

Fought wib Irah AGain.. dat doesnt matter..

but wad really hurts me & wad really makes me cry is dat NAZURA is Attch to NAZRUL.. !! owh gosh .. its too late.. haix.. my besh FweN & my EX-bOIFYY.. ! OMG .. nobody noes hwmuch my heart Aches.. Hw much i cry ech dayy Having 2 realise hys olreadi Attch to my Beshfwenn ..!

omg.. i juz Cant say much.. ! Stress Stress Stress.. ! Exams... Fwens.. & DHIs.. ! A reality dat hys attch.. hahs.. niwae.. Dhis year Rayer is juz plain Bowink.. !

2008-09-19T07:56:00.001+08:00

2008-09-19T07:56:00.000+08:00

omg.. 18 Sept 08.. Wen thu Watch Tampines Rovers vs Albirex Niigata ....

score 2-1.. T.R=2 ... omg.. !! so so so Damn fun sia.. & Heck, the Ball-pickers R so so Damn Kiyut seyy & Hawt... Omg i tynk i've fallen in Lurve wib one of the ball-pickers..& dhe guyy looks xactly lyke Hazwan.. ! & istia,.. Hes MINE.. !!!! hahas Joking oni... Stil Remember wen we were @ dha trafficlight crossing, two group of different guyys were lyke disturbing us & GUESS WAD THEY DISTURBED syafiqah; calling her 'Ronaldo'..ronaldo or wad.. ! hrmmss.. den say Amiryl & syafiqah were MAN Utd couples & man Utd sux.. lame or wad.. hahs... Dha group of Ballpickers & dha other 'mat reps'.. hahas.. Kiyut or wad men.. & it was lyke arnd 10+pm.. niwae Great game.. & wad mre embarrasing was dat istia & Syafiqah was lyke Shouting & beating ech other up in xcitement.. & wen dhe match ended, Idstia & syafiqah was lyke waiting 4 dha T.R players thu walk past dhem & dhey said hi..hahas.. really funny..Gud tymes.. Gud tymes.. nex mon goin thu watch Tampines Rover vs Sengkangpunggol ... Cant wait.. !!

2008-09-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

Omg.. Finally 2day's Fri dat means its end of the week.. =) hrmmss.. got soccer match aftawards.. scared seyy..
Omg i juz cant believe izal(shahirah's Ex boyy) treats her lyke dat.. its sad yu noe.. ! doesnt mean dat ex cant care 4 ech other or cant look out 4 one another.. ! wad the hell.. ! plz lurhs izal.. wad kinda guyy r yu.. ? hate yur type..
Skewl's otye paid more attention in lessons.. =)
hrmss..

[I realise its my mistake.. lyke i've recalled, i shudnt hav wen out wib my closest fwen which is a guy 2 slack under ur void deck.. but i swear hys juz a fwen..mayb its fate 2 lost some1 who used thu love me.. coz i took ur love 4 granted.. ive made u cry & even made yu sad.. NW IVE LOST YU.. !! i deserve dis.. Having yu by myside once was olrteadi a wish granted 2 me but i didnt treasureit.. i noe yu deserve some1 better.. i dun dare tok thu yu & 4 9 months, ive been waitin 4 ur ferst wordss.. but it nvr came.... loving yu frm afar was dha most painful challenge im facing.. ! if oni dis words r spoken earlier.. wuldnt it be 2 late thu tel yu dat i love yu?.. mayb those words arent suppose thu b spoken.. i can lyke some1 but its differnt frm loving yu ..!]
9 mOnths & CounTing ... these words were suppose thu be told thu yu a few months back.. ! nw its toooo late...

2008-09-09T14:22:00.000+08:00

9Sept08.. Skewl as per normal.. GuD tymes.. Gud Tymes.. =)
Hrmms.. played a game in class during Assembly period.. Funny lyke hack.. hahas.. & dhe whole class was lyke so chaotic.. i lyke.. hrmss.. I miss Alep seyy alotss.. BUt i dun tynk he miss me.. tehee.. No assembly 2day.. yea.. hrmss.. bTW GOT LECTURED BY mR rAHIM.. haiyo.. so so sad.. boohoo.. lyke not.. Eyyy !! i wonder why teachers hav to b so so damn K.p.o .. hrmms.. its my lyfe wad.. its nt urs to jugde.. ! haiz.. niwae still in skewl blogging.. Bowink.. Got soccer Training afterwards.. Omg.. i juz cnt xplain hw i feel nw.. hrmms otyes.... ... .. ... .... .... .... .... .... .. . . . . . ...

2008-09-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

Y do we owaes hav alot of things in common? Lots of dhem.. Y does he lyke a gerl named NURUL HASANAH.. ?.. y am i still thinkin of hyme wen hys out enjoying hymeself wib other gerls.. i juz dun get it.. Dha fact dat we hav xtrmly lots in common... dha fact dat hys in love wib another gerl & im stranded in dis heartbroken worl.. dha fact dat argghhh!! im gone frm hys lyfe 4ever..somrtymes i c married couples 2gther & i wonder.. Do they realii love ech other?.. if oni hidden lies were told.. if oni i knew hw yu reali felt..

if oni wad yu r showing nw on dhe outside were all lies..

if oni yu knew.. !

2008-09-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

5 sept, Soccer Match against Singapore poly.. We won 5 - 0.. hRmss Afta match wen thu watch under19 match @ Clementi..

Hrmms.. Can i kill myself? are phrased dat kept goin on my deepest tots.. I duno y but i juz feel lyke ending it.. ending somtyng insid dat has been hurting me.. ending my wories n my dreads.. Wad can b so so stressful thu me??. Skewl.. teachers..Fwens.. Parents.. Studies.. Tyme.. ??..If oni some1 culd lend me a sHOULDER 2 CRY ON.. I WULDNT HAV THU GO CRYING alone nor wuld my lyfe turn upsid down.. ! i miss my old lyfe but nw im changing.. chnging into some1 better.. A betterr person i might say.. Am i dat bad til yu Damn bloody teachers r Nit-picking on me?.. Blaming me 4 every single reason dat doesnt involve me?.. is it fair.. yu teachers R racist.. wad more yu teachers r Biased.. ! haiz.. skewl holidays R up.. BorinG.. !!!

2008-09-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Fwenshipp.. mE & NazuRa.. @ Esplanade =)

Shiokk sendiri.. teehee ..
=)

HAiz.. im still wondering.. alot of thing juz cant seem thu get out of my mind.. im still confused.. Slack-ing wib nazura.. OutstandinG
view.. =)

Huhu .. =) Hys SO Not my Type !!.. hahas

.. i juz miss my old Hair style.. hhas.. hrmms..

=) i still remember dhis day.. goin thu Bugis wib saiful & shafiq & nazura.. Lovees..

2008-09-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

yu left me without a word.. Nw im Wondering if yu ever mean a thing bout he yu feel 2wards me.. Yu cume & yu go any tyme yu wan but every tyme yu do, yu owaes make me feel loved.. Im wondering ifyu were telling dha truth or were yu juz playing wib my feelings.. Nw yu start 2 drift apart, pushing me away.. yur deserting me in my lyfeless world.. Im confused ?.. i juz dun wan 2 wait any longer .. yu've crush my heart n i dun reali nid it coz its olreadi broken..

& Naz i duno y i tot yu were gone 4ever but i was wrong.. Haix i noe i will nvr get yu bck.. nVR in my lyfe.. i noe yu love somebodi esle but but i juz cnt Xplain.. My lovelyfe juz vanish leaving me empty inside .. Loveless, im still finding my perfect hyme& i wish he was dha ryte 1.. My biggest mistake was letting hyme in my heart.. & nw i felt dat noone can ever ever replace hyme..

im wondering is 'someone' playing me out.. ? he made me 4get naz but as soon as hys gone, naz reappears bck in my mind.. oo goshh ...

Hrmmss.. Niwaes im gona chnge.. i promise myself im not gona b lyke last tyme hw i used 2 b.. !
Ytd,3 sept wen 2 soccer training & afta training wen 2 watch Kallang roar wib ERa & Addie.. =) So shiokk.,.,.. ! "Untuk Bangsa dan Negara, Majulah ! ' hahahas..
hrmms.. otyes otyes..
Friday, 5 sept, got Match Against Singapore Poly.. Hope we win.. teehee.. =)

2008-08-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

Im a Soccer Bitch i admit ..!! But nw i tend thu Slack.. !! omg i scuk @ soccer.. kwang3.. ! hahas.. soccer is my thing.. yu mess wib one ,, yu mess wib dhe whole team.. !! Dat tyme wen thu Prawn Village ! Fun Fun Fun !!loved Dat dayy .. i wan more .. teehee.. hrmms.. istia thinking of Nazirul i noe.. ! im left all alone.. lonely & sngl.. kwang3 .. hahas .. niwaes love dhe Prawn .. wen bck arnd 4am in dhe mrning.. =)
I noe i look so damn Retarded hahas.. yea ! played soccer wib cuzzies.. 2day iss loved ...Bowink xia in skewl .. I hate skewl many2.. ! Lyfe suzx in skewl.. ! lots of probb.. Ppl R racist men !!
Istia Hawtstuff even though juz finished playing Soccer in dha RAIN !! i love dhis days yaw.. !

2008-08-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

hrmms..
oteyys dis is it.. im so so dead .. ! why is everytyng turning upside down?.. im so stress up .. ! omg .. dm wans thu mit my parents.. ! well long story .. !! juz having bad tymes in skewl .. ! hrmss .. juz duno wad thu do .. ! i cant turn bck tyme i chnge anytyng nw.. niwae why does dis hab thu happen thu me.. ! im sick & tired of having thu go thru dis everyday .. ! & seriously i duno wad im feeling ryte nw .. ! i wana pass my exams.. ! & i tynk, nw im gona chnge into a better person .. no mre hanging out or slacking afta skewl.. ! i juz wana noe if he really lykes me .. is he dha ryte guyy 4 me ?.. hrmmss.. i hope so.. but nw, i'll juz leave it thu fate..
if we were meant 4 ech other den we will be 2gther but if nort den ... hrmmzz..

2008-08-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

ermm.. seroiusly im confuse.. ! maybe its better not loving some1 den getting my heart broken.. ! IM FINALLY OVER NAZRUL ... !
OO GOSHH.. im over hyme..
but im in love wib alep.. !
i swear im in love coz dis is wad i felt wen im in love wib naz.
. alep made me 4get naz.. but.. i tink juz maybe he lykes some1 esle..
! if oni i can tell hyme dat i love hyme..
but its impossible..
we'r oni fwens & i hate making dha ferst move..
ermm.. & bout taufiq.. oo dear ! i duno if he reali does love me..
he keeps calling me syg & all & saying i love yu.. !
errr... but if alep reali lyke some1 esle den its fine coz as long as hys hapi,
i'll owaes b hapi .. !
ily ......

2008-08-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

Nizam Dearez i mish my hyme, Cuzie, lots lurh seyy ..
errm.. bowink seyy.. so long didnt blog..dha mth of August sux means it sux.. ! seriously.. okeys.. lets sum it all
up.. Ferst Ting,, im missing Alep xtrmly lots !! nw adays we dun kinda cntct wib ech other much.. seriously i miss hyme so damn much.. ! ehrmm.. i wonder wen we can mit up again.. nvm.. im so so so damn afraid.. 18 aug is cuming.. omg.. ! seriously i hope i noting will happen.. ifdha necklace is not found, & thers prove on cctv, louis, nazura & nana is gona get into deep trouble.. ! nana got 2 pending cases & i dun wan her 2 go gerls hme.. ! Iqit & Amni i sh olreadi in gerls hme.. !!!! i mish dhem sia.. !!

♥

2008-08-02T00:04:00.001+08:00

Err.. 2day 1-8-2008 ..
Didnt turn up 4 skool .. !
went 2 soccer training wib nazura & louis.. met nasrul & hys fwen @ orchard MRT station.. nazura's scandal kod.. hahas.. okeys training was damn tiring & bowink.. nazura was lyke purposely attracting attention frm dha guys as they were watching us train.. errr .. niwae i found out dat nazura used 2 hate me .. actually i used 2 hate her too.. ! agrgh ..
afta training went 2 esplanade wib nazura, nasrul & hys fwen .. yu noe wad nw i realised y guys actuali lyked her !!! wen shes around guys, she wuld ignore me.. & i wuld be left walking alone.. ! errmmm.. ! she's lyke a totally changed person weneva shes around guys.. ! omg.. well 2day she really makes my blood boil lyke FUCK ! ermm.. wad dha helll.. haiz.. didnt expect her tuu be dis way.. ! im reali disapointed sia nazura.. ! even nana doesnt ignore me wen shes around qaiyum.. ! i really love nana siots.. ! dat tyme, me & qaiyum was sick den she took care of us.. ! treat us tu macdonalds & all.. ermm.. niwaes , nazura dun even noe dha truth bout everytyng... ! she doesnt even noes dat ppl hates her.. she doesnt even noe dat ppl kol her BITch !! even nana & ita hates heer.. argghh !!! talking bout ity makes me mre angry !!

2008-07-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

Ermm.. haiz.. im solving everybody's relationship probs but mine is still hanging on dha edge of a mountain cliff.. i wonder who will solve mine.. wen i heard nazura patch bck wib arshard, i realise i was hurt.. but not bcoz of dha bothe of them.. hurt bcoz arshard nazrul's beztie.. & last tyme, wen nazura & arshard was attch, i was attch 2 nazrul.. ermm.. ! it doesnt matter.. im still waiting 4 dha ryte guy.. nex, nana & qaiyum patch bck ! im happy 4 them.. nw im really trying 2 help irah patch bck wib izal.. & i really hope they do.. juz wanna c them happy 2gether.. ! well nvm.. i guess .. wad nana say is ryte.. "itys not dat ppl dun lyke yu, itys dha way yu react wen they ask yu 4 stead & all yu ever did was to reject themm.. & itys not dat ppl dun lyke yu or ppl dun ask 4 yur numb, itys bcoz yu really dun bother bout all these guys & wen they ask 4 yur numb, yu'll juz walk away lyke as if nothing happens.. !" ermm.. i guess itys true.. but if im in love or i realy care 4 dat some1, i try my bez not 2 hurt hyme.. i really dun wan 2 c hyme hurt.. after making a mistake by hurting nazrul, i told myself dat i dun wana get into a relationshp.. i dun wana hurt hyme lyke i've hurt nazrul..

i really wish if wads hes feeling nw is dha same as wad im feeling.. I hate hyme lurhs.. dats wad i kept telling ppl but do i really hate hyme?.. well dat tyme i told 1 of naz's fwen dat i hate naz but he told me dat itys obviously i dun & dat i still love hyme.. haiz.. im seriously damn confused..! ppl asked me y im not attch but i hav so many damn guys whos been asking me 4 stead but my ans was simple.. im in love wib some1 esle..! ermm.. dats ity i guess..

naz & hes fwens.. guess which one is hyme.. =b

2008-07-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

Omg! last 2 days Mattew ask me 4 stead but i rejected hyme coz hes lyke 1 yr younger & i kinda treat hyme as a younger brother.. ytd got in contact wif Taufiq after we stop contacting ech other 4 a few mths.. & wad dha hell, 2day he ask me 4 stead.. !! ermm.. okey2 dis tyme seriously i dono hw to reject hyme coz hes been asking me since end of last year.. but eventually i was attch so he told me he'd wait 4 me.. OOO No!! .. ermm.. im afraid if i tell hyme dat im lyke in love wib some1 esle, he'll find dat guy.. just lyke last tyme..
but seriously.. i kinda miss alep.. ! & somehw, i dono y i cant keep hyme out of my mind.. ermm.. niwae, dha reason y i keep rejecting ppl is bcoz im in love wib hyme..! errr.. juz hope he doesnt read dis.. :) teehee

♥

2008-07-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

♥ ermm.. okeys.. heres why im blogging 2day.. ! got lots of trouble in skool.. wif fwens & everytyng.. tuu much taiqi outside & in skool.. ! ermm.. ferst thing itys bcoz of jaez.. second is about louis.. everyone in skool is against hyme & supposingly im dha oni one dat is close tuu hyme .. ! but it doesnt matter.. i pity hyme tho..

♥ ermm .. yu noe im bored having tu talk bout nazrul all dha tyme but seriously why does he owaqe make mr cry & why does he owaes appear bck in my lyfe everytyme.. nw we r lyke enemies & it realy hurts yu noe.. i dun wan everytyng tu turn out dis way..! i just wish i could turn bck tyme.. start frm dha day we met.. errrr.. if i would continue writing, ity be all about hyme & itys gona be damn long.. so i tink im gona stop here.. wow i still cant believe dat im single 4 lyke 7mths+ & hes dha last guy who i broke up wif.. he promised me dat he will stay single after we broke up.. argghh wad dha hell ... why do i even bother.. ! itys not lyke he cares.. & everytyme we walked past ech other, he didnt even bother tu say hi or even a smile.. he would juz walk past me as if im invinsible.. i still wonder wad i did wrong.. ermm.. well i wonder why i still cry wen i hear hys name.. & ppl just keep reminding me of hyme.. nort oni ppl frm my skool who'll ask me bout hyme.. till nw, ppl frm hys skool who i dun even noe, would ask me bout us.. ! haiz, i dun noe if im doing dha ryte thing.. it doesnt hurt hyme to talk to me ryte or does it.. ? i wana noe.. ! i hope i dun accidentally bum into hyme again one day coz i noe dat i would eventually start crying again.. :( but itys okeys.. i just dun wan to be seen crying.. coz i noe itys not worth crying 4 a guy.. !

Ermm.. ??

2008-07-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

okeys.. itys been long since i blog so i duno wher 2 tu start.. errm.. lets c.. Got into national gerls soccer team.. had a haircut.. soccer training every tues & fri.. after every training slack at town or esplanade.. :)...

ytd wen Bowling wib cuzz homeclub.. ermm.. i tink dats it..

noting interesting though... ooo & i 4got.. spar wib nana chinonet & nazura.. ouchh .. & i hurt my rite leg.. teehee..

♥ Haiz.. Troubles !

2008-07-07T17:43:00.000+08:00

♥ omg.. 7 june 08.. haix.. argghhhhh! im so so errrrr im so stuck up.. i DUNO WHY im feeling dis way.. its a mixed feeling i cant explain.. haiz.. oni God noes wad im feeling..
[1] I MISS ALIF veri stronG..
friday.. sat.. sun & mon.. he didnt reply my msg.. i miss hyme lyke hell & i wonder y he didnt reply.. Haiz.. wad if i accidentally fell in love wib alif?.. wad am i suppose thu do..? Does he loves me dha way i love hyme.. Ermm but i noe i it wun happen.. i dun tink so..! Seriously i miss hyme..
[2] Im gona miss FYryn..
Fyryn ran away frm hme last sat & we were searching 4 her lyke mad on sun... dha gud news was dat she wen bck hme in dha morning but dha bad news was dat she had thu move bck thu johor & stop skool frm 2day onwards.. haiz.. even though we fought alot, i still love lyke my own sis.. SAD! :( im gona miss her.. i olreadi did.. duno wen we gona mit again... thnkieew 4 everything yu've done 4 me.. & thkiew 4 introducing me thu bdk2 Sengkang..
[3] i hate my dad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ Ermm.. 4 june 08.. :)

2008-07-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

♥ermm.. 4 june 08... skool was as normal... great & all.. afta skool wen thu nana's hse... den wen thu Hougang mall wib nana & got my hair highlited.. nice siA.. i wana highlite blonde (jiwer nana ) but didnt coz its not skool holiday or sooo..! niwaE i'll make sure i'll dye natural brown 1 OF DIS day.. wow.. & den highlite blonde.. weeeeeee.. :) loveess...

♥ Pictures can Tell a Thousand Stories.. :)

2008-07-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

♥

A day @ Clementi & Compasspoint..

omg i lovee dem lurh seyy.. DrnG systers aqku okeyss.. yu mess wib one yu mess wib all.. !!

ermm... Inside train.. Inside Bus..

♥ 2 july 2008 ♥

2008-07-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

♥Errrr.. okeyss im sooooooooooo stress up..!!!
haiz reali feel lyke cryinG seYy.. i duno who tuu tell everything thu..?.. ermm.. wad dha hell.. lets start.. 2day during P.E, did beep test, sooo tirinG & i was dha oni gal left @ lvl 7 rounD 6... & im soooo soooo sooooo soooo TIRED.. !
kk den wen thu mly class & got scolded by mly teacher.. i was dha oni person who did my homework but yet i was scolded 4 no reason.. ermm... dha teacher was so fed up wif our class dat she juz wen off... so we stayed in class w/o ta teacher, 4 3 whole periods & den wen hme.. 'teehee.. well dat wasnt bad enuff.. i was selected 2 lead a group ppl 4 NC TALENT SUPERSTAR 2008!!!.. & i yu noe me i got Stage fright 4 goodness sake..!!
okeyyss.. dat juz wasnt it,,, Omg!! i reali tink Jaez,Azril,Matt,Abdillah,nana & me r gona separate.. haizz.. i realli dun wan dis thu happen.. :( got lots of prob in skool ... which im not allowed thu post online.. coz dis is reali personal.. !! haizz... ther r gud tymes & of coz Bad.. & i tink somting bad will happen thu me... which i cant state wad.. :( i juz wish somhw everytings gonna b olryte.. Insyaallah..

♥ Omg Saw NazruL !!!!!! ♥

2008-06-30T19:19:00.000+08:00

omg... 30 june 08... saw Nazrul @ cp..
ERRRR..!!! Y must i see hyme again?!!.. i dun wana see hyme..
haiz.. Slalu klaw g compass mesti terserempak ngn dier.. Bodo seyy...
haiz.. omG... wad tuu do... i cant reali explain anythinaG ryte nw.. im juz missinG hyme.. ermm.. haiz.. i dun wana see hyme again.. !!
stop remindinG me of dha past.. Let bygones be Bygones.. !!
Naz 4 once, why do yu owaes appear bck in my lyfe every tyme i've forgotten yu.. ?....
Haiz.. Cn i 4get yu?>..! plz make me 4get yu... !! ♥
NAZrul YU Owaes make me Cry!!! & i reali dun nid it..!! :(
Wads dha matter wif yu nurul?!!??.. He has hurt yu & yu still cant 4get hyme?...Alif.. & hes lyke way mre hawter & lagy baek dary Naz... !! ermm.. wad if im seriously in love wif alif.. errrrrr.... im not sure if i gud enuff 4 hyme.. hes lyke a totally nice guy... im sure alot of gals r crazy bout hyme..! ... & im lyke so so ermmm... so so .. ermm lets put it dis way... hes such a nice & caring & lovinG & Hawt guy!!.. Mayb he deserves some1 better... !

eRMMM .... nie lurh Nurul klaw da sedeh bobal yg mepek..!!

♥ Racial Harmony Carnival Thingy ♥

2008-06-28T15:36:00.000+08:00

Ermm... 28 JUne 08.. Skool on weekend.. had dis carnival thingy.. BoWink... !!
didnt wana go at ferst but den those guys force me tuu... ferst activity was sudoku.. den off tuu dha booth...dedicated a sonG tuu my bezties.. niwae i wasnt one of dha volunteers who volunteered tuu look after dha booth... but den i & jaez had tu help out since some of dha volunteers was busy wif their stuff.. aiyo... so tirinG... & i got a new perfume.. satay smell... teehee... nah juz kidding.. ermm.... niwae after al dis, wen tuu slack @ cp... ate @ Kfc... saw Aqilah & gang.. niwae i tink my peeps & i were lyke the main attraction in kfc.. hahas... coz we were lyke laughing uncontrollably LOuD!! & the guys were playinG wif dha damn ice.. throwinG at ech other & talking so Loudly...! Who cares.. they were so childisH but funny... in the end, I spilled my drinks on my P.E t-shirt... aaaERRRRR!!!!! so paiseh!....

♥ 26 June 2008 ♥

2008-06-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

Ermm.. 2day, Really Bowink..
But den, ManpinG stole (*s) Hp & hid it..
i really pity (*s).. I was sitted ryte at dha bck & matt was bside me.. so, Manping came & asked matt tuu keep it.. i told hyme 2 gif (*s) hes hp bck but they refuse so wad can i do..
i cnt pawto them,, their my Bestie but im feel so wrong..!! & Lyke OMg P.E was soooo TirinG.. !!
& it sux.. Had tuu run 2.4km, DO Pushups, Situps.. Was usually dha ferst for 2.4km but den duno y i was tuu Tired, i didnt ran so i walked & i had tuu do extra Pushups & all.. Nw my body's really achinG.. 'teehee.. :) errmm.. Reccess.. Wen tuu mit Jaezafiq & Azril... OMg they were TakinG
"LAUGHING GAS" !!
in their class!!... saw dha chinese guy.. well his name is ALvin.. hahas.. Funni sEyy .. Nw hes callinG me "dArling" errr ... eww.. Nvm...hahas dono wad tuu say.. I rather call Alif Darling.. hahahas..jkjk
Afta skool wen tuu met up wif Frenz frm other skools.. Hahas.. wow they didnt turn up for skool coz they had their hair coloured... haiyo.. !
ermm .. Nurul is MissinG AliF.. :) ♥

♥ 25 June 2008 ♥

2008-06-26T16:34:00.000+08:00

♥OmG lets start wen i was in skool,..
During recess, I was talkinG to My Besties.. AZril, Matt & Jaezafiq
.. Den suddenly dis chinese guy frm class <3a>,
kissed my HAND... wad dha hell!!!..
I so shocked dat i didnt even say anythinG..
but luckly jaez & Azril scolded hyme..
Afta skool wen tuu Bedok..
met istia frm ther wen tuu Bugis..
Had a haircut..
oohh Gosh i reali love my hair..
But guess wad i wasted $65
juz on my hair.. huhur.. :)
den wen shoppinG @ Bugis Street..
Bought CloTHES & sTUFF..
Really had fun but tirinG...
SHOP! SHOP! SHOP! till i drop.. 'teehee..
wow didnt expect tuu spend nearlY $ 100 2day...
around 6pm wen tuu Tamp tuu send istia hme..
Reached hme around 9pm..
@ hme, i had tuu study so i studied till 10.30+..
Really tired..

♥ 24 june 2008

2008-06-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

♥ Ermm.. 24 june 2008.. 7:11 pm...
i reali miss Alif lurh seyy.. alots..
haix.. its been 2 days since we didnt msg & i dono y i cant take it..
I miss hyme bynk2...
Aqku Rindu Alif..
I wonder y?
Juz nw wen 2 slack at cp 4 a while...
i remember dha tymes wen i met Nazrul ..
Seriously.. Y must he appear in my lyke.. if i culd juz turn bck tyme,,,
I WOULD NVR Hav HURT HYME!!..
omg.. 5 mths past & wad dha hell .. haiz..
Woit! Nurul, 4get naz olreadi !! Hes moved on.. hahas.. :)
But im afraid if im WRONG..!!
Seriously, Its really hurtinG me..!
Aqku Cinta Banget Samerr Alif?...
omg Nurul plz dun turn ''JIWANG''!! yu r not a jiwang person okeyys..
Im reali still afraid tuu fall in love..
i realii dun wan tuu get my heart hurt again..!
Alif oo alif.. im glad yu aPpear in my lYfe..
I miss yu banget2..
:)